seriously tired. ytd was crying n crying. went to slp but half way wake and cry again. jus keep on crying n crying till 6 i slp. My dear didnt even call me.. jus msg me .. y ah? y? don u know this period i need u most? u know? i doubt so. if u know, i wont be crying in the middle of the night.

Firstly, we didn't quarrel. My deary is Good. Just i'm too emotional. I need a shoulder to rest everyday. i know it wont be everyday. But sorry i'm jus so lonely. really so so so lonely in my heart. my heart keep on droping tears, every night. do u know deary? can't we jus like lovely as be4? y do guy really let girls know honeymood period is only 3 month. y? i dont understand? cant be forever?

I'm sure my dear can just live alone. he is indepent.? But i'm not. My face show that i'm strong.. But my heart is not. I just have to protect myself. I still haven find someone to protect me. Will the person be here soon?

I keep on telling myself to hack care abit in the relationship so i wont so xin ku. i can tell u is hard! is hard to hack care. like tat must as well don be together? I keep calling myself to be clam, relax.. like my deary suppose to meet me early ended up late like 7pm? i call myself relax.. hack care. (as it been so many time. and we keep on quarrel abt it.) As i calling myself to relax... my tears is in my eye. Serious. I'm sure that u dont know tat while waiting for u on Ytd.. my tears keep on rolling in my eye.. while i keep on thinking u r on ur way to find me. ended almost 6 u r still at home. dissappointed.(i'm serious, although i didnt say)

Ytd ended not tagging u all u know y? cos i dont know how to go home in the end. Not i tired. i'm not happy. seriously not happy.feeling so weird.

After the day u come stay at my house.. u know wad? i was thinking when will be the next day? without i insist. u Know wad.. i think i'm not going to ask anything anymore.. if u know me well.. u'll come automatic.. u'll know when is the timing i need u so much. without midnight i call out to my friend cry and not u.