woots woots~!after tat my thinking was hack care hack care hack care~~ lalala~~ yea!! wo kan kai le!!

jus realise i can talk alot to paul n joe girl =) we went for supper! =) mac seaweed fries~! finally!!=)

haf a chat wif dhila on phone too=) yea.

hmM tink tml jus call him put my thing wif ray ba.. den i'll get it the next day morning=)

i'm getting stronger n stronger! thanks u.

i'm waiting for time to register my school~!


well i think i can haf a nice slp today..=) don feel like i got slp ytd.. thing r in my mind~

today suddenly got to work full.. haiiss.. well is ok. cos the girl is doing school work~ n since i haf nth to do so i work..

Damn shit. i forgt tml mon. i haf to be home for dinner. den i still say ok change shift. well sorry mom. i forgt. enjoy ur dinner alrite=)

i luv u mom. Today onwards other den myself i'll luv u..


AND FINALLY i brought my hair mask.

=( back home tampines. Dhila i miss u so muchie. i miss my friend. we shall back to last time. lets go out n chill.


i need my friends.

lots of tears running out from my eyes today..

cab home from tm..

misses my friend..

i wanna eat the dessert at bugis..

i might transfer out =(

i wanna cycle from last year..

i wanna eat steamboat with my friend..

i wanna sing wif him but it wont be happen. so i rather sing wif my friend..

i need to care n love myself more den others..

i need to be happy from today onwards..

my heart is too weak to cry anymore..

i wont ask anything from u anymore..

i'll be brave till my one come to my life..i'll!

i love my mummy..

i'm getting not happy n not happy..i'll change this!

i hate the way of .. folding arm, seeing other side, roll eye talk to me. I HATE! i simply HATE u!

My heart tear! into bit n pieces.

If i'm just trying to make a fuss. JUS to make a toopid fuss. i can tell u, i wont be crying so hard! almost tear myself!. If u think i'm jus trying to make a fuss when i'm bored u r wrong!.
Y mus i cry so hard jus like this.?! dont u ever know!? becos it is a matter to me alrite.! if u r not a matter to me i can tell u i'm not going to care n cry for u! REMEMBER tat! i can tell u! my heart is kinda different! when will i haf a feeling of don feel like meeting u?!?! Recently! seriously. alrite.

OHHHH.. Today off^^.. but i woke up early again.....-.- online to search for maple clinic. Wanna go see face doc~. When i called n ask about Dr ong. They say is already full house! my god.. call me don come today.. T.T.. i been thinking so long long long... T.T I need a skin care for my skin, my make up remover running low.... FINISH!!! omg. And my hair!! keep say by a auntie! i wanna buy hair mask? or reborning... -.-.

Maplic Clinic Tampines st 81 Blk 825. Tel: 67839038.

Ytd a bad days..... i wake early den go work early. reach bugis 1pm. walk to dearie place find him. bla bla in the end i put my ezlink card in his wallet. And i didnt realise till i off work. wtf. i tot i lose my CARD!. inside got $30 plus.... Den called dearie ask he say he got 2 card inside -.-.. den i want buy ticket. machine cannot eat my $10.(hang up phone wif dearie cos his watching tv den slient also cant help me) den i go withdraw $$ den realise they only accept coins. i So Gan chiong. but my dearie......... "so cool".... my thinking is dun care abt me le? even i no coins no card. .. .. feel like crying outside as i'm alone.. haiss.. if u was dhila gd.. when i forgt bring my keys to work she's the one who rush out from home to pass me her key. she stay tampines too.. but u.. hmm.. ended talking on phone wif me was kam yew to kill my time.. till dhila come den u msg wan me call u?.. always abit late.. if ytd u sound gan chiong abit i'm be glad.. at least u scare i cant go home..... sorry tat i complaining again...

To u i jus like a small small girll.. of cos without u i'll be indepent.. n back to my ownself as my friend know how am i..=) so so so when i got a bf i'll be like a small small girls=)


so in the end dearie wass asking cab? or buy new ezlink card? buy he spon. but i cab home myself instead.. while waiting for cab. dear go slp first.. cos he say he too tired..


Not meeting dhila today for makan.. cos her ah bang coming..=) good to u dhlia=)) ur ah bang now getting better=)) kip come find u ya (thumb up). she say she missed mee~ !! me too dhila!! i miss talking all sort of things to u!!=) so serene~HAHAHA

Today work at 2pm. But wake at 10.30.. slpy...... i Need a hair mask?!?! my hair is so messy!! shall go bugis early see hair mask.. if gd den i no nid do reborning =) i wanna see skin doctor.. for face. But wanna try out dior product too.. like not bad.. just started~trying.

And And And i love my job now~~=)) although is sales~

ytd deary say work more gif me allowance more.. so sweet of him.. *touch!! =)

oh my dark eye circle...... YEA YEA tml off!! finally!!

couldn't fall slp ytd.. cos was thinking thing n my stomach is calling! so now i'm eating whole meal bread to fit my stomach.. but hor i dunno the bread expiry liao ma.. think no ba? cos i brought it 5 or 6 day ago..

seriously tired. ytd was crying n crying. went to slp but half way wake and cry again. jus keep on crying n crying till 6 i slp. My dear didnt even call me.. jus msg me .. y ah? y? don u know this period i need u most? u know? i doubt so. if u know, i wont be crying in the middle of the night.

Firstly, we didn't quarrel. My deary is Good. Just i'm too emotional. I need a shoulder to rest everyday. i know it wont be everyday. But sorry i'm jus so lonely. really so so so lonely in my heart. my heart keep on droping tears, every night. do u know deary? can't we jus like lovely as be4? y do guy really let girls know honeymood period is only 3 month. y? i dont understand? cant be forever?

I'm sure my dear can just live alone. he is indepent.? But i'm not. My face show that i'm strong.. But my heart is not. I just have to protect myself. I still haven find someone to protect me. Will the person be here soon?

I keep on telling myself to hack care abit in the relationship so i wont so xin ku. i can tell u is hard! is hard to hack care. like tat must as well don be together? I keep calling myself to be clam, relax.. like my deary suppose to meet me early ended up late like 7pm? i call myself relax.. hack care. (as it been so many time. and we keep on quarrel abt it.) As i calling myself to relax... my tears is in my eye. Serious. I'm sure that u dont know tat while waiting for u on Ytd.. my tears keep on rolling in my eye.. while i keep on thinking u r on ur way to find me. ended almost 6 u r still at home. dissappointed.(i'm serious, although i didnt say)

Ytd ended not tagging u all u know y? cos i dont know how to go home in the end. Not i tired. i'm not happy. seriously not happy.feeling so weird.

After the day u come stay at my house.. u know wad? i was thinking when will be the next day? without i insist. u Know wad.. i think i'm not going to ask anything anymore.. if u know me well.. u'll come automatic.. u'll know when is the timing i need u so much. without midnight i call out to my friend cry and not u.

kinda emo recently.. dun know y..
Dont really like smiling. Even i see my favourite deary. weird. wad wrongs?

AhhHH i want $$$$.

Doing some shopping online and spent $80!! my gods.. no $ still spent.
My pay onli will be in 25 next month. HOW AM I GOING TO PAY MY HSE BILL! WTF.
Big HeaD i can say.

Can i like normal teenages?! Earn money spent myself? not for billlllllll.... i haf to find at least $600 for all bill man! $600.! i nid a break! i really nid! Not include my expenses, transport. my God. Can let me strike a TOTO?! alot alot?! den i can go study without thinking so much abt work and still can take my nail and make up course. I need $$$$$$$!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i wanna go out. i wanna go steamboat. i wanna go k box. i wanna have some night life. but wont get fat. i wanna studyn half work. i wan to cab home when i'm just tired n not forcing myself to take bus when going midnight. i wanna buy shoes, clothing, bag, see doctor for my face, repaint my room wall, bed, wardrode, table, light, fan. I want aircon. can i?!



I'M REALLY TIRED............ CAN I DON PAY FOR MY HSE BILL?!?! AND SPENT THE $$? CAN I?! OMG. can i jus after school work part time.. den out wif my deary.. haf light supper.. chit chat awhile.. cab home den next day?! too much?! too much???! =(( anyone know how tired and how i envious girl??.. i know there r ppl more worst den me.. but most of them no! NO NO NO!

i'm tired but cant close my eye.......

Anyone can be like the type of deary i want? always beside me when i fall slp? hugging me throughout the night?

i dont want to be a strong women.. i jus wan to be a small women..

13 july, dear really come overnite at my hse le.. maybe i kip insist? asking him got come? cos.. i'm kinda lonely actually..

we slept at ard 6 am.. but dunno y.. i don feel v v v v v happi.. i still kinda moody.. and abit weird feeling.. i was quiet.. like nth to talk.. i think i'm too tired le ba.. slept till 12.. den go disturb dear at 2pm. wake him.. den play game awhile, clean my room.. 5 out from my hse.. to tampines.. we CAB!=) once dear come my hse.. my hse always so neat.. thanks to him alot.. we reach tampines.. we went to din tai feng eat.. i treat dear eat.$50 plus =) a nice breakfast,lunch cum dinner? lol.. then we walk ard tampines mall,centry square.. den to simei den back to tampines one.

i been craving for food -.- . buy yan su ji to share wif dear.. den dear going mj le.. i cab him home den back to cck~. reach home almost 11pm..



hmm.. i abit different? nowadays i don really joke.. y? am i getting mature? hahas.. dear also say he now prefer going out with ppl elder.. cos they know how to take care ppl too and no nid entertain.. =) this part we r same.. we dont like entertaining ppl..alrite.. and.. we not realli like last time le.. kip going out at night.. we get tired evening to nite time.. like to stay at home? haha.. gd? =) a nice evening with dear..

i got myself a new shampoo n conditional =))let see is it gd.? =)




nothing tends to attract me.. i kinda cant smile.. don no y.. even ytd dear come my hse.. i wasn't like past kip on laughing n stick to dear.. weird ya lol..




ps. dear.. do u know 13/07 nite be4 slp i drop my tear? and next day be4 bath i drop my tears too? i'm sure u donno... i lub u..

4th dat working at dior..woots not bad~ today sales was suck.. lol

today hear from dear tat he going help ray work.. ooooo sudden.. happi la..but emo also.. cos i off he work.. so in the end i tml go help candy work... earn income..

cos i haf no income till next month 25!-.- wtf.. n i borrow $1200 from my uncle.. -.-

so many bills to pay!!