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2009-12-05T17:59:00.000-10:00

i hate u bloddy hell. hope u know

2009-11-01T08:50:00.003-10:00

ytd (1 nov) went kailin adv birthday celebration =) den went to town meet jh, tric, adam, cs! watch movie =)) watch jennifer body! nice show. always abit bloody till i cover my face.. lol. she's SEXY! woots!

2nov

my birthday is comin! shall i go jurong make my personal cake? like sian ah. make myself zzz.

a bad day today --.--

wooo. thanks dean for asking n say wanna treat mi eat mac =)) but i diet..haha n ended he eat maggie! LOL

boring day.

i fucking tired! but cant slp! shitt

2 nov 09,2.52am

2009-10-30T10:32:00.003-10:00

woohoo!! a gathering! =) wif tric, dean, adam n edwin!! a nice day! =) went movie.zzz thanks to dean!! wad a movie he choose! i n tric almost die inside!! LOL

den went to mr bean chill chill den cabb home! =))

emo! i'm going to float ard next month!! ahhh!! zzz

zzz.

31/10/09,4.34am

2009-10-22T06:13:00.002-10:00

congrat to u.

ytd club! omg siol! LOL 8 ppl 4 drunk !! of cos NOT MI! i'm awake! haha! meet dao alot of ppl! a angmo so so so tall. he behind mi hold mi = cant see mi! i'm so short! -.-!

meet another group of ppl! all guy. treat us drink. so good.. order put at table call us take n drink. is realli for making friend =) all friendly ppl =))

this post shall write gd thing for club =) shall update photo soon =))

22 oct a busy day sia. morning sch, den work, den CLUB! oh my~~ LOL

23/10/09
12.24am

2009-10-20T02:22:00.003-10:00

normal day. No work! yes!! i'm so tired of work now. work work work -.-

Lesson start 8.30 but i reach sch 10.30 haha! cool eh. bring lappy to sch, so so so HEAVY!
after lesson went to the library to do assignment den go marsiling meet mama makan. so pek cek cos the weather so HOT, my lappy so HEAVY n i'm so HUNGRY! zzz

eat finish liao feel so so so tired omg.. den back hm almost 7?lol

i CRAVE for so so so many thing!!

wanna eat sushi, dim sum

wanna buy Book(from qiao en), bag, hair dye, shoes!, clothing!, wanna make contact lens, a new phone! i wan new thing for 21st! a new start! =)) can i??? wad i needed most is cash!! ang bao oso can! hahah!

sian.. feel like going out but.... no $$ -.- all thing cannot do. sian

Ytd (19/10/09), after sch went lot 1 meet mama. went to singtel ask abt student plan they say mdis cannot! @#%$!!@ onli gov school. fuck it. so down. den sms dean say cannot apply liao cos mdis .. -.- den in the end he help mi ask ask ended!~! CAN!! woots! den he sms mi say can liao come down vivo now~ so i jump out of bed change n off to vivo alone~ woots! helping mi alot! n realise he so gentlement siol. n i onli pay 50 buck =) LOL he so relax at work sia den talk talk acc mi walk to mrt~ haha! den take train headed to yew tee meet mama makan dinner~! den home sweet home. too tired till i 10 plus fall slp~! lol

woots. last sun when dean back sg msg mi ask abt the line n he tell mi 6th nov all comfirm go ktv! o.o!! he speedy action lei!! my phone he oso speedy action gdgd. gd friend!! =)) realli thanks to him siol!! i got my student plan! unlimited sms!! oh yea~ going change back my line soon~!

20/10/09
8.41pm

2009-10-18T08:33:00.002-10:00

=( now at yew tee mac studying with jenny. But i cant study anything..=( i cant remember anything. i'm so scare. i'm so tired. i'm so stress..

i scare result, i scare my bro =( i scare he scold mi..

=((

recently was keep thinking abt my 21st birthday.. wanna realli enjoy but cant.. no $$.... haiss

feel like crying sia.. can i gif up my study? or can i don work? cant...:( i have to do both :(

school suck.. didnt find a v close friend.. well is ok.. i haf some close friend =)

was chatting wif jenny abt something.. den suddenly i start the topic of dunno whether i can accept another partner in live? can? cannot?

i cant imagine i have to do the same thing to the other partner.. wad i n jj do.. cant imagine to do wif another.. haiss~ so lost lo.. randomly think of bit n pieces in mi n him for the 1 yr 9 month..

if u r the junjie i jus kno so gd.. tink i wont be keep on thinking abt it? tink this time 2.42am we are hugging each other n fall slp tgt.. sending mi to sch? LOL.. well well its dream already!..

haiss but i cant keep staying in the past ba.. cos the time i like the way he treat mi we jus know each other.. we don realli know each other.. haiss.. wad can i say? dotss... have to keep telling myself let it go... bygone!

Yi Ting! u haf to be strong! mus overcome! no matter hw miss oso tahan! =)

thanks thanks thanks to dEAN! haha although nt comfirm but he manage to find ppl buy phone den i can upgrade my line to student plan! =)) and actually i haf to pay 100 he call his friend to pay 50 buck! so i onli nid to pay 50 buck! haha =)) yea yea! hope can la!! =))

woots!

fri 16/10/09
Cousin wei hao come my hse find mi..12 plus midnite hahas.. teach mi my school thing..while he seeing my book i was doing wad? ONLINE haha. den teach teach awhile he hungry~ den i go pong pong den headed to yew tee mac makan.. till 4 plus in the morning back to my hm. den i fall alseep! ops! 6am gt wake by him say going hm liao.. hahas den i open the door.~ he oso say i actually quite demanding!~~ lala~ my bf sld be the one qian jiu wo! lol.

sat(17/10/09)
wake up ard 12 plus den online again. daily routine. no work. den 3 plus headed to zihui hse! we going BBQ~! hoho! on the way to her place my gastic start to pain when i'm inside the mrt @#$#%!$ so pain! den alight liao fast went to buy waffle! hoho nice. den walk to her place.. zzz i walk wrong WAY! spent long time walking under the HOT HOT sun! zzz mood so pek cek lor! den scold my big bro! wuhaha. Finally reach the floor my bro come out of the hse drag mi go buy ice! $^@$#!# zzz. i haf to walk again. NB. ok la.

5 plus headed to condo BBQ~! some ppl occupied our seat! we put our thing there sit beside so long still don leave! mi n zihui zzz! when they laugh v loud we so not happy lor. den zihui turn over and say we book here from 5. GOOD ONE! hahaha! =) den we start our BBQ~.. zzz. the fire take v long time to start up. When it done to cook the fire so small lo -.-

busy cook cook den half way go buy cha co LOL. so tired. like didnt eat alot.. LOL den after BBQ tot of going sing. but open till 1am so the idea~gone! we walk back to zihui hse put the rest of the fd den in the end.................. we went to 7 11 buy beer back to her hse n drink n chat n play game~!(guessing song) in the end so tired LOL 3 plus cab hm~!.

19/10/09 2.58am

2009-10-04T05:25:00.003-10:00

Today, morning eat wif dad.

den noon meet cousin.. at lot 1..

den meet kam yew~ go watch movie.. ugly truth! nice! a nice day hees

heard from him..his sis got married le! yea yea! congrat!! hees=)) married is a v gd thing! =))) cheer!

4/10/09,11.26pm

2009-10-02T04:50:00.002-10:00

ooo.. tired! finally no need work. yesh. YY birthday.. i didnt attend.

sleepy.

tired.

haiss.. still don understand y.. don u download msn again for the last few month? wanna see u online but die die don see.. not don contact, always see u online.. haiss

my head is cracking. HEADACHE.

haiss.. i'm so bored~. is there any bf always be at the side of gf when they r down? or accompany them when they r bored? is there a v caring bf?

eh.. kinda stuck at the middle. wish to haf a love one but don dare to haf too. zzz

emo.

2 oct 09, 10.55pm

2009-09-28T05:47:00.002-10:00

today! start sch lo!! LOL..

well. same see the lona n sam -.-. fuck.

well.. =)) nt bad feeling.. at sch~

finish sch talk cock outside sch awhile den jinyu,yy,sasee,john n me walk to mrt~ was chatting while walking.. say alot of joke..

Den off to work~. make new friend! haha.

times passes fast today =)

a friend of dior pissing me. Kip say want go back early cos didnt go eat. call me punch out. WTF. zzz. i call her go see but she dun wan. zzz fook.

Back home wif sk2 girl n her bf. see they both so sweet!. i laugh all the way sia haha. we was kip saying joke.. hahha =)

28/9/09,11.51pm

2009-09-24T05:32:00.002-10:00

i miss u suddenly..

think of so many thing..

i feel like back to u but.. dun wan to oso..

haiss..

i must look straight..

i haf to be strong..

u msg me am i ok? tc ok.. u like v stress.. made me.. tink more..

hao xin ku...

wo xiang nian ni yi qian bao wo de shi hou.. but it been v long time ago... well..

T.T.. kinda miss u somehow.. if this world no nid think of future.. n we r jus 17 18 i think we would be v happy.. or maybe last month u start keep going work.. don tell me u wanna rest at hm.. we would be like this... well.. i haf to let go..

YI TING.. u haf to let go! u haf to walk straight.. u haf to continue ur path..

any1 wanna hold my hand?
tightly.. n forever

droping tears...

24/09/09,11.38pm

2009-09-15T08:14:00.002-10:00

突然的感想。。。

很感谢你爱过我。。和你在一起让我知道被爱过，被真希的感觉。。不是永远的感觉。。但之少我拥有过。。。

有开心也有不开心。。。

我曾经想过和你步路礼堂你知道吗？。。。

好累。。

我真的很想和爱的人在一起。。不管发生舍么事都想和他在一起。。
好想和爱的人步路礼堂。。一步一步走进礼堂。。听着朋友的祝福。。和他结为夫妻。。=））
拥有我和他的房子。。自己的世界=））每天把他从睡梦中叫醒。。说老公起来咯=）一起吃早，晚餐。。一起看电视。。一起露眠。。=））

这是我的dream！

会实现吗？完美的爱情。。

16sep,2.35am

2009-09-14T21:36:00.002-10:00

T.T a gd friend of mine say i change...

well.. maybe? i dunno..

cos of? she say maybe jj.. well..

i'm tired..

feel like crying this moment..

does any1 realli know how i'm feeling?

i so lonely.. i hate to be alone.. i hate

i jus cant be quiet..

i wanna be wif my love one..

i'm searching for it.. n searching..

the last n only 1..

i wan happi ending..

i wan a guy tat i can yi lai..

take care of me..

there for me when i'm down..

can i?

T.T

i don kno wad i want..

i'm tahaning. pls. if u know me.. don say the thing i hate to listen.. bao. i do understand don cos of 1 ppl let go of the rest. but if they r realli my friend,they sld understand.. wo bu xiang mian dui ..

can i be back to the ting linna know? i wanted.. back to the life in ite. can we?

going to work soon..

15 sep 09,3.41pm

2009-09-13T06:07:00.002-10:00

Yea! today went interview! haas. hope can get in la...

went interview wif tan. den we go shop at clark quay de shopping mall.. spent 100 plus! woots. Broke.

Got 2 clothing for myself, a jacket for tan.. birthday present..

den back home nid joanna at lot 1.. makan n chill.

Back hm! tml i haf exam! OMG

i'll study later! shit shit!

realli hope the job wan me! pls! pls pls! =)

i wan ang bao for 21st can?! hahah

no $$ sia =(

12.11am,14 sep 09

2009-09-10T05:12:00.001-10:00

ok.. i sld change.

nv concern so much.

jus concern myself.

this wont drag to any quarrel...

issit??

EMO EMO

2009-09-10T05:03:00.000-10:00

and girl, i didnt mia.. i see u r offline. so i go offline after tat..

2009-09-10T04:59:00.001-10:00

feeling damn low!

i hate this type of feeling.

i hate quarrel.

y?

i shouldnt concern so much.........

2009-09-10T04:50:00.002-10:00

emoing now! now now!

wad i care for = don wan to hear anymore.

the action by u... make me cant believe.. u ignore me :(..

well.. i'm busybody..

wad can i say..?

my heart seriously tear..

i don kno u will haf this action to me..

tot we r the 1 can really talk..

am i wrong? of this thinking?

maybe i'm the 1 onli think we r close friends..

woots.. double attack.. after 1st attack from mdis..

hands off..

back to myself..

not going to care for anything now..

i haf a lots of thing to concern T.T

my hse~! i might be moving out..

alot of thing..

anyway sorry to u, i shldnt care for u too much.. i sldnt say anything..
heart crack.... ;(

10/09/09
10.56pm.

2009-09-09T19:57:00.003-10:00

having holiday now. lots of thing happening.. zz. well i hate sch, i hate lona n sam. they simply drag me in. fook!.

Thing happen in my family too. haas.

Today shall haf a meeting in hse!!..

Shall see i nid to move hse anot~

lalala~

i wanna move hse~

i wan a new fresh air..

i'm waiting for my one to come out~ bring me to his life.? i wanna be like in fairy tales.

a caring, understanding, dote me n his career husband.. well is hard. =)

i'm waiting for a shoulder for me to rest no matter wad hahas

10/09/09 2.01pm.

any1 haf friends working at club? i nid a part time nite jobs..

a friends of mine.. is v sad recently =( kip on crying.. after me.

girl.. cheer. u'll find a better 1 alrite.. althought i kno u still cant let go.. this 3 month will be the time for u to move on...

Girl. after heard the story of u.. i cried.. i really cry.. :((

我心疼你.. :((..
不管如何。。你一定要幸福。。一定。。。
你很坚强。。。
很有勇气。。。
不管如何我一定知持你。。。

我的心好痛。。。。
世界真的很不公平。。。

2009-08-31T19:23:00.006-10:00

Random photo! wif sch friends n Jenny

01 sep 09, 1.49pm

2009-08-31T19:21:00.001-10:00

kip crossing my mind..

2009-08-25T20:33:00.006-10:00

Random photo =)

Days with classmate.. Jinyu celebration birthday, pub n Club nights..(rebel) fun.

2009-08-24T12:14:00.000-10:00

Haiss.. Tired. slp for 4 hr ? jus wake to study. But i cant remember anything. Is tan helping me to note the important thing.

hMM.. was emo at 3 plus. LOL. well well.. shall not say so muchie y i'm emoing.. wuhaha.

Aniway see that u r hanging with ur friends back now. Happy ya. Sorry. i hurt u alot too. i'm tired..

AHHHH my test gonna FAIL. i haven study.! after today still got a test.! ACCOUNT. OMG. =((

recently went to club. Rebel. fun. =)) make new friends. continue going for 2 day almost die -.-. tired. cum sec day abit drunk. omg

Wed going club again. with lona, joyce =). am i really enjoying? or just trying to kill time? dont let me haf free time to think thing?

Y do u still msg me to take care eat medicine? =( i sld be happi or not happy?

Y when we r still together i told u i'm sick but sometime u don haf action taken?

wad sld i do den??

i'm tired!! i having headach!!

Not enough slp!! n stupid gastic is killing me man.

shall stop n study. MUST at least remember little bit.

2009-08-22T15:41:00.001-10:00

emoing -.-. today take mc didnt go work..been going to club continue 2 day.. ytd abit drunk-.-... i'm tired....well sam is a fun boy .. lol take care alrite. don tink so muchie. u'll meet a nice girl soon..

2009-08-19T05:30:00.002-10:00

=(( after so long, 1 yr 9 month 8 days my relationship finally ends. Thing still don work out for us.
i do feel sad. i don feel happy. well, after so long u r still saying i jus say break easily. u still say i donno the feeling -.- tired

Friends of mine know how i feel toward my relationship..and how i see this relationship

My eye was red. eye is heavy.

Lucky tan was with me now. staying over at my hse.

i shall not write so much abt my relationship anymore..

i can say.. i'll miss u. But i think i shall just miss, but not be together..

I Have to say sorry that i say break to u again. i totally know how u feel.. but i cant continue.

i do really hope u r the one who say break to me.. Hope u say BREAK to me n not me.. i might regret 1 day? even if i really do, no worries.. i wont find u back.. and i'll just let u go.. cos i'm the one who let u go first.. do take care of urself.. be the jun jie i just know u..

=(( i'll be back alone today again.. but is alrite.. i'm not really always wif him also when i with him.. friends say u r doing thing alone wad.. -.- Stop reminding me.

=(( Night make ppl emo more easily.

My lappy spoil. need serivce but i'm lazy.. using tan lappy now.. today as usually went to school. finish go home den bring lappy to yx there. call him reformat but in the end is the fan spoil -.- den he drive me to chinese garden den i mrt to meet tan.. till now...

end of the day..

=( overall bad day. no more any other day of two of us.

19 aug 09,11.56pm

2009-08-11T20:55:00.002-10:00

Yea yea~! today school was at PS. after school go shop awhile with friend den back home. we drink a wild mushroom soup~! after break back to classrm.. we were keep on changing email~ hp no~ facebk... bla bla bla.. OH MY today lesson!!! blur! woots damn nice de lor haas craving for prata.

Ytd!! 11 aug! our 1 yr 9 month. we went to town(ion) bugis (ray work place slack) den iluma to watch murderer. abit yuck! bloody. the show so so only v draggy. 2 hrs plus. Watch wif tan n aaron. haiss.

After show sit outside nearby iluma wif dear. talk awhile.. till tan call me say she break wif him le.. den we went to mrt den home~.

Reach home 10 plus bath den go out meet tan at lim bang. Den we go 7 11 buy food makan. woots! we spent almost 20 bucks man! oh my.. den talk talk talk till 12.30 home sweet home as i'm so tired!! wake up 6.30.. home @ 12.30. Next day 6.30 wake up again. shag!

Today on the way to school overslept at mrt. sld alight at douby got but sit till raffles.. -.- den faster alight take train back.

hmmM was thinking how to do a business. so now i'm looking for blogskins for my new online blog shop! Elayne's Nails~ hees! =)

bye~

actually alot of random photo to upload but lazy~

12 aug. 3.01pm

2009-08-05T02:27:00.002-10:00

haiss. my relationship is so weird. my bf sudden don like me stick him. he change.

i donno how to face him like tat.

being normal? i cant?

r we still bgf? do u really love me?

if u love a person u would be like this.

u wont don like me stick u..

totally si wang.

some time do u kno i really ask myself does i love u?

i'm stuck in the relationship. do u kno?! i doubt so. cos u kip feel tat is normal. i tell u is not!

and i hate this type of relationship.

seriously

if the relationship u wanted is when u miss me den u look for me. i don wan. i hate it.

when u miss a person automatic u'll look for the ppl. miss the ppl.

u r forcing me not to.

thanks u.

today althought talk to u. n its like nth... sorry u r wrong.

don wan y after so many thing i say to u.. u say ok or wad ever thing. i feel we wont be back anymore.

already totally change..

i feel like this is jus dragging the time.. its really pointless

if 1 day u saw my blog.. pls read through wad i haf written.

i feel i'm not being love by u, n even if now u do.. i donno i'll feel happy anot or no feeling.

i only can say all things change n its really change.. no longer like past anymore.

i started don understand wad u r thinking. and i don feel like thinking anymore..

2009-08-02T04:46:00.002-10:00

Today emo. afternoon went to tampines pass form to tric n jh. Den walk ard at tm n t1.. Den we went to saycheeze~ to eat.. not bad. But abit ex. haha. 3 ppl eat $70. After tat walk awhile more den i go find my favourite dhila. den they went to town?

till 8 plus pm. jj den wake. well although i at tm but didnt meet him.

Tml i starting school. think he forget i start sch tml.. he promise to bring me to school on the first day.. well..

2 day ago tell him tat i only work 8 day in aug. ytd nite he wake den went mj. den reply tml u off ah? ... ... ... again he forget...

i totally speachless....

i'm not happy recently.. jus feel bored? tml think i sld go register my car driving. tot of doing all this thing wif him.. but.. haiss..

Is relationship like tat?! i think i'll nv understand.. even if cant meet i think action can let another know ur concern?! i don kno.. i hate to be like this.

i know if kinda childish. but u promise u'll bring me.. 1 month ago. my thinking was jus like.. y adult kip like to lie to children?! wtf.

i wont be so so so angry cos u was saying u going to work.. hope u do wake up in time..to work. but was disappointed! as u totally forget all abt it! is totally! if u remember u'll say sorry. but u totally forget.! thanks u again.

heart drop down to floor n crack to pieces again. after all thing.. n no matter how u stick there always haf line left behind..

sometime n something when u miss.. u wont be able to get back the thing or feeling.

Wish myself gd luck tml. hope i can make friend on the first day. Thanks to nana n dhila still remember tat i going to sch.

2 aug 09, 10.58pm

sometime i do feel like saying i hate u...

2009-08-01T07:26:00.002-10:00

ti got so little schedule this month.. only 8 day. my god. ytd went to sing. at iluma the place is nice but but but! half way the aircon gone! my god! damn hot.

Ytd was lucky. first day of opening only charge drink $. if not usually is 1hr $20 !! woots.

back home 4 plus slept at 5.30am.

Wake up at 2 today den start keying paperwork. den makan den key again. finally key finish all at 12 midnite! i almost die. and was so so so hungry now!

today didnt meet jj. cos he wake up at 7 plus. den awhile later receive a msg den he gone to mj.

so i'm whole day at home. well.

dunno he will play till wad time so think tml wont be meeting him too.

haiss shall see tml nite any respond from u. u gif me a feeling tat u forget again. the thing when i keep remind u 1 month ago.

dunno y i'm not happy at all. y? getting more n more bored. all change....

i'm off to bed.

02 aug 09. 1.33am

2009-07-26T07:10:00.004-10:00

woots woots~!after tat my thinking was hack care hack care hack care~~ lalala~~ yea!! wo kan kai le!!

jus realise i can talk alot to paul n joe girl =) we went for supper! =) mac seaweed fries~! finally!!=)

haf a chat wif dhila on phone too=) yea.

hmM tink tml jus call him put my thing wif ray ba.. den i'll get it the next day morning=)

i'm getting stronger n stronger! thanks u.

i'm waiting for time to register my school~!

well i think i can haf a nice slp today..=) don feel like i got slp ytd.. thing r in my mind~

today suddenly got to work full.. haiiss.. well is ok. cos the girl is doing school work~ n since i haf nth to do so i work..

Damn shit. i forgt tml mon. i haf to be home for dinner. den i still say ok change shift. well sorry mom. i forgt. enjoy ur dinner alrite=)

i luv u mom. Today onwards other den myself i'll luv u..

AND FINALLY i brought my hair mask.

27 july09,1.15am

2009-07-25T07:19:00.003-10:00

=( back home tampines. Dhila i miss u so muchie. i miss my friend. we shall back to last time. lets go out n chill.

i need my friends.

lots of tears running out from my eyes today..

cab home from tm..

misses my friend..

i wanna eat the dessert at bugis..

i might transfer out =(

i wanna cycle from last year..

i wanna eat steamboat with my friend..

i wanna sing wif him but it wont be happen. so i rather sing wif my friend..

i need to care n love myself more den others..

i need to be happy from today onwards..

my heart is too weak to cry anymore..

i wont ask anything from u anymore..

i'll be brave till my one come to my life..i'll!

i love my mummy..

i'm getting not happy n not happy..i'll change this!

i hate the way of .. folding arm, seeing other side, roll eye talk to me. I HATE! i simply HATE u!

My heart tear! into bit n pieces.

If i'm just trying to make a fuss. JUS to make a toopid fuss. i can tell u, i wont be crying so hard! almost tear myself!. If u think i'm jus trying to make a fuss when i'm bored u r wrong!.
Y mus i cry so hard jus like this.?! dont u ever know!? becos it is a matter to me alrite.! if u r not a matter to me i can tell u i'm not going to care n cry for u! REMEMBER tat! i can tell u! my heart is kinda different! when will i haf a feeling of don feel like meeting u?!?! Recently! seriously. alrite.

26july09,1.30am

2009-07-24T18:22:00.002-10:00

OHHHH.. Today off^^.. but i woke up early again.....-.- online to search for maple clinic. Wanna go see face doc~. When i called n ask about Dr ong. They say is already full house! my god.. call me don come today.. T.T.. i been thinking so long long long... T.T I need a skin care for my skin, my make up remover running low.... FINISH!!! omg. And my hair!! keep say by a auntie! i wanna buy hair mask? or reborning... -.-.

Maplic Clinic Tampines st 81 Blk 825. Tel: 67839038.

Ytd a bad days..... i wake early den go work early. reach bugis 1pm. walk to dearie place find him. bla bla in the end i put my ezlink card in his wallet. And i didnt realise till i off work. wtf. i tot i lose my CARD!. inside got $30 plus.... Den called dearie ask he say he got 2 card inside -.-.. den i want buy ticket. machine cannot eat my $10.(hang up phone wif dearie cos his watching tv den slient also cant help me) den i go withdraw $$ den realise they only accept coins. i So Gan chiong. but my dearie......... "so cool".... my thinking is dun care abt me le? even i no coins no card. .. .. feel like crying outside as i'm alone.. haiss.. if u was dhila gd.. when i forgt bring my keys to work she's the one who rush out from home to pass me her key. she stay tampines too.. but u.. hmm.. ended talking on phone wif me was kam yew to kill my time.. till dhila come den u msg wan me call u?.. always abit late.. if ytd u sound gan chiong abit i'm be glad.. at least u scare i cant go home..... sorry tat i complaining again...

To u i jus like a small small girll.. of cos without u i'll be indepent.. n back to my ownself as my friend know how am i..=) so so so when i got a bf i'll be like a small small girls=)

so in the end dearie wass asking cab? or buy new ezlink card? buy he spon. but i cab home myself instead.. while waiting for cab. dear go slp first.. cos he say he too tired..

Not meeting dhila today for makan.. cos her ah bang coming..=) good to u dhlia=)) ur ah bang now getting better=)) kip come find u ya (thumb up). she say she missed mee~ !! me too dhila!! i miss talking all sort of things to u!!=) so serene~HAHAHA

25 july 09,12.38pm

2009-07-23T17:24:00.003-10:00

Today work at 2pm. But wake at 10.30.. slpy...... i Need a hair mask?!?! my hair is so messy!! shall go bugis early see hair mask.. if gd den i no nid do reborning =) i wanna see skin doctor.. for face. But wanna try out dior product too.. like not bad.. just started~trying.

And And And i love my job now~~=)) although is sales~

ytd deary say work more gif me allowance more.. so sweet of him.. *touch!! =)

oh my dark eye circle...... YEA YEA tml off!! finally!!

couldn't fall slp ytd.. cos was thinking thing n my stomach is calling! so now i'm eating whole meal bread to fit my stomach.. but hor i dunno the bread expiry liao ma.. think no ba? cos i brought it 5 or 6 day ago..

My god! pay day on next month25! wtf!

24 july 09, 11.33am

Radom photo lol..

2009-07-19T04:10:00.002-10:00

seriously tired. ytd was crying n crying. went to slp but half way wake and cry again. jus keep on crying n crying till 6 i slp. My dear didnt even call me.. jus msg me .. y ah? y? don u know this period i need u most? u know? i doubt so. if u know, i wont be crying in the middle of the night.

Firstly, we didn't quarrel. My deary is Good. Just i'm too emotional. I need a shoulder to rest everyday. i know it wont be everyday. But sorry i'm jus so lonely. really so so so lonely in my heart. my heart keep on droping tears, every night. do u know deary? can't we jus like lovely as be4? y do guy really let girls know honeymood period is only 3 month. y? i dont understand? cant be forever?

I'm sure my dear can just live alone. he is indepent.? But i'm not. My face show that i'm strong.. But my heart is not. I just have to protect myself. I still haven find someone to protect me. Will the person be here soon?

I keep on telling myself to hack care abit in the relationship so i wont so xin ku. i can tell u is hard! is hard to hack care. like tat must as well don be together? I keep calling myself to be clam, relax.. like my deary suppose to meet me early ended up late like 7pm? i call myself relax.. hack care. (as it been so many time. and we keep on quarrel abt it.) As i calling myself to relax... my tears is in my eye. Serious. I'm sure that u dont know tat while waiting for u on Ytd.. my tears keep on rolling in my eye.. while i keep on thinking u r on ur way to find me. ended almost 6 u r still at home. dissappointed.(i'm serious, although i didnt say)

Ytd ended not tagging u all u know y? cos i dont know how to go home in the end. Not i tired. i'm not happy. seriously not happy.feeling so weird.

After the day u come stay at my house.. u know wad? i was thinking when will be the next day? without i insist. u Know wad.. i think i'm not going to ask anything anymore.. if u know me well.. u'll come automatic.. u'll know when is the timing i need u so much. without midnight i call out to my friend cry and not u.

19 july 09, 10.28pm.

2009-07-18T07:05:00.002-10:00

kinda emo recently.. dun know y..
Dont really like smiling. Even i see my favourite deary. weird. wad wrongs?

AhhHH i want $$$$.

Doing some shopping online and spent $80!! my gods.. no $ still spent.
My pay onli will be in 25 next month. HOW AM I GOING TO PAY MY HSE BILL! WTF.
Big HeaD i can say.

Can i like normal teenages?! Earn money spent myself? not for billlllllll.... i haf to find at least $600 for all bill man! $600.! i nid a break! i really nid! Not include my expenses, transport. my God. Can let me strike a TOTO?! alot alot?! den i can go study without thinking so much abt work and still can take my nail and make up course. I need $$$$$$$!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i wanna go out. i wanna go steamboat. i wanna go k box. i wanna have some night life. but wont get fat. i wanna studyn half work. i wan to cab home when i'm just tired n not forcing myself to take bus when going midnight. i wanna buy shoes, clothing, bag, see doctor for my face, repaint my room wall, bed, wardrode, table, light, fan. I want aircon. can i?!

I'M REALLY TIRED............ CAN I DON PAY FOR MY HSE BILL?!?! AND SPENT THE $$? CAN I?! OMG. can i jus after school work part time.. den out wif my deary.. haf light supper.. chit chat awhile.. cab home den next day?! too much?! too much???! =(( anyone know how tired and how i envious girl??.. i know there r ppl more worst den me.. but most of them no! NO NO NO!

i'm tired but cant close my eye.......

Anyone can be like the type of deary i want? always beside me when i fall slp? hugging me throughout the night?

i dont want to be a strong women.. i jus wan to be a small women..

19 july 09, 1.20am

2009-07-14T06:43:00.002-10:00

13 july, dear really come overnite at my hse le.. maybe i kip insist? asking him got come? cos.. i'm kinda lonely actually..

we slept at ard 6 am.. but dunno y.. i don feel v v v v v happi.. i still kinda moody.. and abit weird feeling.. i was quiet.. like nth to talk.. i think i'm too tired le ba.. slept till 12.. den go disturb dear at 2pm. wake him.. den play game awhile, clean my room.. 5 out from my hse.. to tampines.. we CAB!=) once dear come my hse.. my hse always so neat.. thanks to him alot.. we reach tampines.. we went to din tai feng eat.. i treat dear eat.$50 plus =) a nice breakfast,lunch cum dinner? lol.. then we walk ard tampines mall,centry square.. den to simei den back to tampines one.

i been craving for food -.- . buy yan su ji to share wif dear.. den dear going mj le.. i cab him home den back to cck~. reach home almost 11pm..

hmm.. i abit different? nowadays i don really joke.. y? am i getting mature? hahas.. dear also say he now prefer going out with ppl elder.. cos they know how to take care ppl too and no nid entertain.. =) this part we r same.. we dont like entertaining ppl..alrite.. and.. we not realli like last time le.. kip going out at night.. we get tired evening to nite time.. like to stay at home? haha.. gd? =) a nice evening with dear..

i got myself a new shampoo n conditional =))let see is it gd.? =)

nothing tends to attract me.. i kinda cant smile.. don no y.. even ytd dear come my hse.. i wasn't like past kip on laughing n stick to dear.. weird ya lol..

ps. dear.. do u know 13/07 nite be4 slp i drop my tear? and next day be4 bath i drop my tears too? i'm sure u donno... i lub u..

15 july 09. 12.58am.

2009-07-07T07:03:00.002-10:00

4th dat working at dior..woots not bad~ today sales was suck.. lol

today hear from dear tat he going help ray work.. ooooo sudden.. happi la..but emo also.. cos i off he work.. so in the end i tml go help candy work... earn income..

cos i haf no income till next month 25!-.- wtf.. n i borrow $1200 from my uncle.. -.-

so many bills to pay!!

2009-06-30T20:26:00.002-10:00

Ytd, early in the morning 5am wake up and help xiao yi run stall at amk -.-. the sales was suck..

$57. haha. and my pay for tat day was $13. and i brought a fake LV coin pouch at only $4. haha 3

plus back home. Dear say come find me.. but in the end.. his mom late back home den he spon

me cab to his place. We was thinking to watch i love u man. but timing not rite ended watch

transform! damn NICE. we watch sec time=) i like the yellow car(bee) haha shuai! =)) den after

movie i bus home~ reach home 11 plus. And while i outside door my bro pop out keep telling me

his hair hair hair and din even open the door for me -.-. he was kinda mad about his haircut..

haha his reaction damn funni!. DEN i show him the pouch, i say JJ buy den he stunt. say mad so

exp. LOL haha is fake 1 alrite.. but i didnt tell him.. cos lazy. half way through the movie i

receive dior call! and i unable to pick up shit. but lucky!! i get the job. starting work on 3rd july!

fast. woots and today plan to go buy my uniform makeup wif dear and eat the dim sum buffet at

ps 3pm.. but now 2.33pm dear not wake yet.. AND yes! we got GOV money! dear say he going

return me $170.. and he left no $ wif him.. i told wanna take n use? he say no different so no

nid.. lol n now.. i'm waiting n waiting for my dear to wake n go town but my stuff..

2.36pm(1 july 09)

2009-06-26T01:16:00.004-10:00

woots~! this two days was enjoying my life with my cousin! qiao en~ LOL and slacking at home..

25/06/09.. 9 plus in the morning, i receive called to an interview at liat towel at 12pm. dotts so

sudden.

And i faster wake up and prepare myself..(make up)~ as i going interview as beauty advisor! haas

reach there 11.45 den i haf to fill up a form again -.-. where by they should have my resume leh.

My interview is not proper -.-. jus 5 to 10 min my interview end.....

Waited for qiao en at far east.. we was thinking to walk around.. n we r really like walk ard~ up n

down without really looking inside the store.. onli some shoes shop we really look through cos..... i

wanna get a shoes!!! haas end up buying a shoes $17.50 where by actually i can get it pink,blue

or white at $10 =.=.. they have no stock of BLACK!! and i wear it straight. cos i wear heel to

interview~.. and and and.... PAIN!

After buying the shoes~ we was thinking to find a place to sit down to chit chat and have my

lunch. we was thinking n thinking end up we realise a new cafe XIN WANG TAIWAN at city

link there.. so we mrt there to makan~ n try.. n n n well its suck -.-.. the place is nice but the food

wasn't that nice.. hong kong is better! and i feel the staff was -.- .. after we eat finish we walk to

bugis~ and we walk awhile we decided to find a place to sit down again.. we r lazy to shop~~~ so

we went to shokudo! have a pizza, waffle, ice cream!! woots.. within 2 hrs we eat 2 meal!! and

shokudo was the last stop of the day.. we eat till wanna vomit! cant finish.. den we mrt home~

while waiting~~ i receive call for sec interview for uniqlo!! only cheng and me got the call.. ziling n

tan didnt..=(

went to lot 1 walk awhile again.. meeting another cousin (qiao si~ qiao en de small sis) she was

looking for a gift for friend birthday~ we meet mini toon didnt find anything but i end up get a

small toy for qiao si =) then,we went to action city.. she got the bear for friend and i gt a small

thing for myself! ^^ back home was already 7 plus.. and i slept at 11 plus cos tml haf to wake up

early for dior interview.. for dear wise.. didnt meet him.. 6 plus wake, msg awhile. tot of calling

him but he say later.. den 11 plus he haven msg me so i go slp -.- tat all~ lol

26/06/09.. en ended up accompany me go interview cos i dunno where~~ instead of dear lol.

reached ther abt 10.15am. start interview at 10.40? come out abt 11? and YES!! i got the job?

haas they say will call me to go for a training and give me name card with mobile no. and say

might start on july! haas ans say they need ppl to work esp. 12,13,14 july! haha yes yes?! and i

selected?! yes rite? my cousin say so too! at first was today go training but my cousin is ard and i

going makan lunch with her.. so i told them sorry.. and they say is ok! they are so so so friendly!!

den say call me again for training haas =) but when wor? hmm hope asap? hees first time i go

interview and straight i got the jobs woots.. after interview we headed to makan cos we didnt eat

breakfast and we are so so hungry lo.. we walk to marina square to makan.. pizza! haas a gd

meal again.. den walk awhile.. she off to meet bf and i went home~ reach hm 2 plus and dear msg

say forgot wish me gd luck.. i at home le. haha den today didnt meet dear also.. seldom contact

too LOL.. no hp to sms.. call him he was playing game n will call me back later =) the end~!

7.40pm 26/6/9

2009-06-23T04:38:00.002-10:00

tsk ! recently kip quarral wif my bf. today also.. sian

i'm tired.

i been crying alot of times.

eye pain.

today sld be finding my bf after interview, but end up? quarrel n i go home.

my feeling is weird..

i hate this type of feeling.

don't let me think weather i'm really in love wif u..

pls. nv. when i think abt it. the ending is suck. pls.

is the not loving n happy ending i wan.

i'm stress

abt?

work? money?

all!!

i'm jobless now, but i nid a long break be4 school starting. BUT my hse bills is all coming up! damn it. give me a break.

and! pLS cant u get a job! pls! u going 2 yrs not working! pls go get urself a JOB! i'm getting mad abt it! get ur ass up and get a job. how am i going to think u can take care of me? NO ok. NO NO NO!! PLS! be a real man!

i'm jus a lady. a weak lady tat nid a shoulder!

can u jus let me be a weak lady?

yep! i finally register my school! starting school 3rd of AUG!! finally!!

today.. quarrel wif him. Tan call me to pray tat she can find a better guy~ and she intro the friend to me~ haas! and we need to change our bf! LOL well well well.. LOL

hmm am i tinking tat too? dunno. LOL

we shall see?

2009-06-06T10:52:00.002-10:00

hmm wake up in the middle of the night. 4 plus. i dont feel well. 12 plus call JJ phone but is off so i call his ma. his ma say he was sleeping. 4 plus wake up call him. phone was on but no ppl pick up. is u r sleeping? or u dont want to pick up my call..

i feel terrible now! hao xin ku! illness!

when u wake will straight call me?

2009-06-06T04:39:00.004-10:00

wad a fuck day i have today.

morning stomach pain, whole body ache. In the end not enough time go register my school. pop a panadol den fall sleep 1 hr. After wake feel better alot den meet cousin go lot 1 makan den off to her place with my mom. Half way at her house, the feeling back. totally no strength.6 plus cab home and see doctor. In the end i fever -.-. JJ 6 den wake.

Hais from 6 plus till now 10 plus he din call me at all. i'm the one who always call him. keep fall slp. and wake see gt miss call from him ma. BUT don haf den i call him. call him 3 time all is watch TV play game. U got me anot! i call so diffcult to make huh. den tot he will zi dong say want come find me. NO. i was sms him want visit me? from 6 plus till 8 plus no call. den call him. when he see the msg. no feeling like tat. i kinda piss. den in the end say i come lor. DEN I WAS #@$!$. u dont do it urself. is i like tat den u say want come. WTF.

8 plus call him again. He really didnt come. SEE. if u haf the heart to come find me. u will!
10 plus still no call. so i call him again. play game again. i talk till like abit not happy. den he also piss. talk to me v pek cek. cant u gif in to sick ppl!

HATE IT!

u dont dote me. seems like game is more important today.

u didnt buy newspaper again.
ppl get tired keep on saying ok.
can u find a job.

i haf nth to say..

失望透了！

2009-06-01T23:35:00.005-10:00

dating wif nana!~ our lunch.. EXP

supper at chong pong nasi lemak.. wif dear, jia ming,wei jie

mummy birthday.. onli me and dear celebrate..

first time i cook the red egg=)

woots. Is really damn long din update. 1 month. haha alots of thing happenin.. i've decided to go school on august! business management at MDIS.=) finally. i quit crabtree too. 4 june will be last day of work=). i'll miss dhila.

Few days ago was worried abt $. was finding part time job. My aunt actually wanna open a blog shop and wanted to find stall and sell, i help her find stall but in the end she dont want.. i was #%$@!#%!! well, i quit! sian.. 2 days ago candy(ex boss) msg me asking me to go back help her. i'm going back..~ 2 months. earn abit of cash.. but it was a tired job.. manicure.. my old lines.. start work on the 8 june to 31 july.. 3rd august start school.. BUT BUT! i haven go register haha..

i've break out recently! my gods. pimple... was thinking abt going school, job n n n $! my dear haven find job yet.. recently was like pushing him to get a job.. haiss... i'm tight n broke.. no $$...
can i plant $ grow $? haha

YEA! i hab my own room back~ lalala my brother move back his room finally..
well.. i room was in a mess long time~ my brother,mother even my dear keep complaining. ok!! i know! is MESSY! i know ok!

today(2 june) haha finally i clear my room. but clothing haven clear finish~ cause wanna get a cupboard..new 1! and i shift some shelf by my own!! fit! haha

2009-04-30T20:35:00.002-10:00

hmm~ ytd got to go cPT work. Got small arguement with peh yean.. Den off work went to find dear. Tot of watching movie de.. But full! woots the day be4 was out wif dear.. while we going to GOD! den dear and me cab home and he but thing for me makan.. so sweet and so gentle nei..

HMM back to ytd. In the end we go batok find jia ming play mj, play till 4 plus.. tot of going makan but all close la!! so in the end he send us home. woots dear coming my house stay nei.. haha=)

Make a new friend ytd. VERON~! haha. and jia ming gf(GUO MING) well.. really feel they v good nei.. and friendly.. woots and was fun. jia ming was so funnny? LOL first time see.. haha..

my dear kanna them say BROrance~ with jia ming.. which mean...GAY! haha

well.. although was abit sleepy.. but was fun!and happy.. haha..

dear was still sleeping now.. haha

01/05/09
2.50pm

2009-04-26T06:52:00.001-10:00

等待

期待

等待

期待。。。。

好了真的睡了

晚安婷婷。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

真的好不一样。。。。

我讨厌只有我这样。。。。。。。。。。。。

2009-04-26T06:21:00.002-10:00

最近。。总觉得我和dear没有话题可聊。。打给他又没话说。。我们5天没见面了吧。好闷。。总是我一个人。。晚上总希望能通个电话聊聊今天做了些什么？

但我们在sms总是觉得对方说话的语气在生气。。还是在不爽对方之后就吵架了。。。

让后我自己就在哭。。。。又想很多。。。。

真讨厌这样的感觉。。

现在的我好想哭。。真的好想哭。。

不是要博同情。。是真的要掉泪。。来至我心身处。。。你知道吗。。。我很孤单，没有安权感。。。

有时想要一通电话说dear晚安，睡好哦！想你！

多幸福啊。。

我要睡觉了。。。一个人。。

晚安义婷。。

晚安。。。。。

*有时看你的blog。。想起很多东西。。。

27/4/9
12.44阿曼

2009-04-24T16:30:00.002-10:00

看到电视。。我好羡慕季妹妹和任甫。。

任甫都一直把季妹妹放第一。妹妹永远都是对的。。都让着妹妹。。永远都真希这妹妹。。

我好想结婚哦。。。

每天放工回家和老公一起吃饭，看店视，聊聊天。

有孩子也好。。一直窝在一起的感觉真好。。。

这一天几时会来到呢？

我的他是他吗？

我好想念那些日子。。。

有一天，我听到一些事。。。让我好伤心好伤心。。。

有人说我要求很多。。是真的吗？我最想要的他有一份稳的工作，然后我们会一止在一起看电视，吃饭。。晚上一起抱着露眠。。

我上班咯。。。。

期待着。。。。。。。。

25/4/09
10.55am

2009-04-23T06:03:00.003-10:00

ytd was a bad day.. for me.. was dropping my tear 1 whole day... cry till sleep.. wake up still cry... was keep on thinking abt... things....

why am i keep dropping tears...?

i'm a bao(princess) in my house.. don't even drop alot tears...

but why still am i keep dropping my tears.....?

why?

cry dao my heart damn pain....

kind of feel........ so different....

am i going to tears to sleep again....?

the feeling is so different..

24/9/09
12.15am

2009-04-21T20:25:00.001-10:00

i just wanna live in a place that is simple~=)

Happy Birthday Z Z

22/4/09
2.30pm

2009-04-21T20:07:00.003-10:00

T.T Cry today... again.. cos i was keep on thinking whether to go thailand.. den wanna go wif my jun jie.. den think of money.. den think of really can work ma.. selling cloths. Then just thinking go do my passport and keep can't find then pek cek, den father wake shout at me.. and i call mum ask where she keep she say dunno. say wan help me find help me find... didnt find..

Search half way CRY OUT LOUD. and no people is at home and i'm all alone...... again....

i just hate the feeling beening alone.

T.T T.T T.T

Kam yew was saying why i everything dunno.. say i blur blur.. when i tell him i only know how to cry..
i'm just a cry baby alrite..

Cry dao i abit heart pain pain... ALONE>LONELY..........

Dear was just calling me to find properly..when i say cant find my passport and cry dao heart pain...
....
......

T.T

Tao YAN LA.... T.T

i also dunno wad i wan...

Few day ago.. CRIED and call dear... asking him can come my house pei wo.. he reply can..but.

i emo T.T

in the end he come.. but mid night 2 plus we sleep but 3 plus he haven sleep.. when i wake he say.. later 5 6 plus i go back first ok..? i was stunt.. n speachless.. the thing was tears come out from my eye again.... is it really that heart for u to come over my hse to stay? cant u just hug me throughtout the night? T.T
i keep on crying crying loudly.. den he hug me.. asking me y? don cry dear... give me the hug i always wanted... and say sorry...... T.T

i feel so lonely....

loan shark come pour paint at my house.. tri was so dan xin about me.... so was dear... he sae meet me at my house there tot he coming pei wo again..so happy.. in the end is just send me.. well i'm happy..but i cried too.. he msg me.. dear i just want stay at home..

dear... u know this word do hurt me too.... i dont wish i'm like v ke lian.. and u just come accompany for the seak of accompany.....T.T

if i'm going to say i wanna stay at home instead of accompany u..how u feel? maybe u will feel alrite.. cos.. we are different people ba...different thinking..

22/4/09
2.22pm

2009-03-22T05:33:00.001-10:00

sian.. bored..

something not right.. eh...

suddenly feel cant click with anyone..

leave me alone..

don't bother me..

unless u really care for me..

2009-03-22T05:31:00.001-10:00

something feel.. dear go out wif ray they all is more happi den going out with me..

2009-03-22T05:14:00.002-10:00

Today meet tian to have my lunch.. haiss.. we simply miss fancl life.. think we step wrong one step.. haiss... while eating we keep on haiss haiss haiss .. so bored!..

Suddenly feel so sian.. stay at home sian go out also sian.. haiss.. no life la.. zz

wan go out also no $ lau........

haiss..

bored..

recently always go out with peh yean n toot n regina.. n dear..

was fun.. n noisy haas!

we took alot photo.. shall update one day LOL..

this 2 day staying at home rest..woots sleep~~ cos be4 off day went to pub.. till mornin man.. reach home 7 plus 8 fall slp....

hmm.. bored..

2009-03-03T21:28:00.002-10:00

my coming NOV 7. 21st year old birthday wish.

To be celebrate wif my beloved one.

He can be my side 1 whole day.

Morning eat breakfast

den walk ard at lot1 shopping mall den back home rest..

hug me watch tv or movie..

sayang my head

evening went to dinner Or we cook a simple meal to eat..

take out my birthday cake..

look at me wholeheartly sing birthday song to me..

n pass me my birthday gift n

say happy birthday my dear hope u will like it..

and hug me hardly and say i love u so much..(of cos is must come from his heart not not do it for the sick of doin!)

2009-03-03T21:12:00.002-10:00

i'm misses ur hug,kiss,sayang! TAT alls
misses the hug to bed..

pls don let me feel after the we patch back is so sweet till weird become not weird..wad i want everything can..pick mi after work..accompany me go for break.. call me.. soo much of concern..

den now was jus cause of my bro den weird weird don come. haiss.

for me is wanna come ur hse. is ur didi got problem.

my wan was he jus make a comment on u n u forbid urself of coming my hse.

ur di did comment say always bring gf gf..bla bla.. i still go?

past few day saying i feel we like long time didnt stay together talk talk. is i miss the day u patch back at my hse ok! and no matter how tired u din even talk loud to me. i was rest u let me rest. and u r so sweet tat u jus stay beside me.

i can say i love u so much.

serious..i don realli like u going pub without me.. i trust u but not all of ur friend..
i'm sure if i was going to pub or club myself with the friend u donno n without u u wont like it? n u will worried?

i will worried,ask question,i will jealous, i will wan tag along wif u jus because i love u.

if 1 day i don do all tis den tats not love anymore.. dont u agree?

in a relationship theres no i do u like tis den u mus do me back. theres no i dont do tis u dont do too..

really hope no tis in our relationship..

well we don quarrel nowaday=) cos we talk thing out ?

tis sld be the way=)

2009-02-18T22:02:00.000-10:00

(miss)zihui says:
in a relationship, u dun count all this lil things. if he love u..no matter wat he'll. this is wat i belive...u ask urself, if u really like something will u get it? of cus u'll, right. it apply on relationship as well.
(miss)zihui says:
so to be like wat tired forget etc... is all bull shits.

tis i agree, no matter how tired i am i'll still go..

2009-02-18T18:41:00.005-10:00

我哭着睡觉。。昨天问你几点来我家，你回答我另一个问题。。不小心说错你懒。。因该是累。。你不听累只听懒。。知后，总觉得你说的话都很直接也很伤人。。难道不小心做错你就要这样吗？发身着样的事后又叫我不要来你家。。然我想到以前。也是这样，那现在又有什么分别。

我有这样对过你吗？你要见我，我说不要吗？

你叫我去找你我就去应为想你也是。明天做早我也去。回到家叫我找你我也去。好几天只睡4个钟。我都没说不要去找你。

昨天你说累，要睡觉明天起来才msg我。T。T 。。。。我知道你累。我也会累。。的。。。。

我只能说我可以为你做这，你不可以吗。

如果你不想勉强自己累还要meet的话。。没关系。我想我也可以这么做吧。

我不是应为你这样我才这样。。

如果你想一想。。。我要见你。。是我去找你，而不是叫你来找我。应为我知道你没有钱。。那没有管希。。我去找你咯。。你还说累要睡觉？

我不懂。。

梁靜茹 - 會呼吸的痛

intro by kaini。。

nice song。。

2009-02-17T06:47:00.002-10:00

。。。。。

why没次都觉得分手了。。我答应你在一起回的时候都比较甜蜜呢？ wad also can leh？don feel weird also leh？

of cos i wont becos of tis say break..

i not anihow anihow say de..

i do treasure our relationship..

well.. i shall tahan..

ur hse is gt --- guy..!!den cannot go ur hse..
....
continue again..

nites ting~

2009-02-17T06:37:00.000-10:00

i'm simple.. quite lonely now i feel...

i'm a sticky girl

2009-02-17T05:49:00.004-10:00

ahh.. blog gt problem sia.. upload photo half way cannot upload liao.. zzz haiss...
nowadays abit moody ya.. woots.. today didnt meet dao dear..

while loading mu photo.. realise there is no photo of dear n mi at all.. haiss.. althought u don like at least few ma rite.. even at valentine day also don haf.. haiss onli mi n dhila de photo.......
valentine eve brought a cake n handmade card cab to tampines find dear.. den nite movie.. den i cab hm myself..

valentine day itself meet dear at 5.30 but dear late.. 6 we meet at town.. den i wated to treat him eat buffet at Ngee ann de but was fully book zz sian.. all place fully book lau!! in the end we went to center point eat fish n co zzz den meet tri,jh,ben n gf haas den we went to ktv den cab hm..

tis few day count count jus realise i spent almost $500 at a valentine!! ooOOOO happening.. lol..

2 day ago gt a small arguement wif dear.. den ytd meet dao dear.. we haf nth to talk at first.. for 20 min..? den we jus walk walk walk silent.. den in the end den ok.. den meet dao tri.. jh..cs..dean.. den guy go play lan. i n tri go hong kong cafe eat n talk.. den nite all cab hm.. at cab dear call mi i was so stunt n happy la..=)

today at msn was asking dear y don haf my photo leh? he say long time no upload.. later upload.. haiiss den i was ... ... i don wan i say den u put.. it mean it not on ur own will rite.. zzz since u don haf a feel to put den forget it.. *maybe in my theory showing gf bf photo.. is letting ppl kno how 幸福am i... but now... ... hmmm.. for mi is dunno wad photo i can put..cos we don realli haf photo.. onlli jus now i upload a photo of him...

tats all.. shall upload the rest of the photo soon...

mi wif card

woots! flower my 1st flower is from dhila~=)

valentine eve wif dhila

valentine card to dhila

done personally for dear.. the last valentine gift...

popeye at airport.. eat wif dear..

from zi hui to my sec bro n mi=) yum yum

been quite long dear no come my hse..

makan wif dhila botak john.. nice^^

dear advance birthday gift..

18 feb 09, 12.32am

2009-02-13T09:56:00.003-10:00

13 feb.. was a rush day for mi.. went to art friend buy stuff to make a card for dear. was happily de lo.. den rush to far east wash photo... tis was a card i do it wif my heart ok! i do use paint to draw.. althought it may not be v v nice la.. is my heart ok..

den still plan tis plan tat.. den i still buy a valentine cake...

Den with a rose go find dhila n gif her.. n i receive 1 too!! was damn happi.. the 1st rose in my life i receive~!=)) was damn happi... den 9 cab to dear hse.. wait for him at busstop..

den i realise cake no knife den i went to buy...zzz

Den find a place n sit to cut n eat cake...

den we went tm watch movie den watch back to dear hse den i cab home..

haisssssss

till now dear haven read the card i do...

say haven go into the rm..

...

kinda disappointed? i rush a card for u den is... i jus wan to see ur happi expression..
... tink i ..
good nite Yi Ting..
happi valentine day Ting...

i also kno u will see...

14 feb 09,4.09am

photo will be up other time..

2009-02-12T03:13:00.000-10:00

i was sick today! n i went to see doctor! i tell my bf den he didnt say anything.

2009-02-11T08:38:00.003-10:00

Today was a bad day for mi.... drop my tears 1 whole day...T.T haiss

been thinking abt course aunt uncle 1 whole day... in the end i still wont be able to take up my course... haiiss Forget it den...

Todae after work went to find dear... i told him all i feel... much better=) dear dear thanks u for listening... Sorry wor..today whole day like blur... kip forget msg u...

today happening! althought dear didn't come find mi but jh,adam,dean was here.. n tian n husband was here too=))

After work went to find dear...todae was our 1 yr 3 month!! haas,.. we walk ard tampines again den got go eat mac too.. LOL...den went kopitiam sit sit LOL.. dear i jus love to be wif u...alone... if theres a place tat we 2 can sit sit..den u can hug mi touch my head will be best! haas...

waiting for dear to put photo in my thumb drive~ but i haven pass to him yet

jus reach home not long ago

12 feb 09 , 2.49am

dear nowaday always see porn...

2009-02-10T16:48:00.001-10:00

tis moment i miss u wanna u be my side huggin mi touch my head..

off to work...

10.48am

2009-02-10T16:32:00.002-10:00

At this v moment i wanna to cry(11 feb 09,10.32am) be4 going work use lappy awhile... was using facebk and saw Geks sista facebk.. ching(elder sis) tag r u alrite sis?! at ling wall when see saw ling status was i'm tired of everything... so sweet.. i wish to haf 1 too.. T.T

i'm simply tired of everything too! cant i haf normal life? tat no need to work sosososo hard. No nid work sosososo hard to pay bill?! T.T

Now emo period....

Ytd went to find dear.. too lazy so cab to dear hse.. first 2 3 hrs was happi.=) the moment his didi back. all CHANGE! zzz i hate it...den use dear com waatch show den in the end we went out of hse.. walk ard his hse area. Den find quiet place n sit down..

den 10 dear stomach pain den withdraw money n cabby hm myself.

12 offline n slp.

i'm speachless at the moment...
nid lots of concern now...T.T

todae was 1 yr 3 month wif dear..=)

Dear happy anni ya..

.........T.T cant help my tears dropping;.. T.T...
shall go register my coure todae ba..

11feb09,10.44am

2009-02-09T16:41:00.003-10:00

i'm bored now!.. sleep half ways kanna wake by tian msg.. den awhile later makan wake by my ma... den awhile makan wake my linna!!! AHHHH.. den 9.30am linna come my hse. Help her touch up her nail.... yawn~ was damn sleepy... ytd slp at 3am nei.. LOL

Now waiting for dear dear to wake up den see how~ r we going to meet leh.. cos think his didi at home...

haiss..... His didi zzz...

ytd after work went to find dear.. at tampines.. den his didi at home so cannot go up his hse... haiss... den we went walk walk at TM den after tat almost 10pm go KFC makan~! i'm damn hungry leh.. LOL be4 he buy a toy~(san guo) to fix.. so after makan walk to his hse now stair to fix... was damn damn damn damn damn COLD!... his didi haven slp... so cannot go up his hse lo~...

Ard 12 we fix finish.. den walk to his hse kopitiam sit sit talk talk awhile den i cabby home~ dear gif mi 10 to cab.. when reach the Mars Cab don't accept nets.. ahHH den wake my ma come down pass mi $. den Home sweet Home.. Call dear dear n online.. LOL.. we was playing Pets society~! Valentine theme~! we design our room nei.. hees den 3 i buay da han den offline orh orh liao.......

OH YA~! last updated didnt say dao i reg my car driving le~~ haas!

er... kinda lazy update photo... next time see gt wad to updated ya~!

10 feb 09, 10.49 am

2009-02-08T05:07:00.001-10:00

will up date some photo soon~~

2009-02-08T04:36:00.002-10:00

5 feb dear come to my hse and overnite=)) long time didnt lo~.. Den we didnt reali slp.. he didnt at all.. mi awhile lol

6 feb early morning 7 plus we went to eat mac. Then we went to bbdc to register den next stop red hill to help my idiot bro take thing.. we were damn shag!! damn TIRED! den back to cck we go qian hu.. haas see fish hees... and we catch fish nei~ den 6 reach my hse slack awhile 8 off to TM.. when 10 plus i cabby home myself.. den go help linna do nail.. (tis day gt good n bad.. we always argue.. due to not enough slp den temper was damn bad.

7 feb after work went to yishun wait for dear,ray,ray gf n wei jie.. i ard 10 reach. in the end they 11 reach. zzz i waited 1 hr myself.. so in the end kno is ray still wan bath la... kinda funni? y they kno going movie.. n i 9.30 off work still wan so late prepare leh?!?!?zzz den i wait dao v tired n i'm damn hungry.. lol once i alight the mrt straight to find food nei haas.. but cannot find! :s ZZ

so we buy ticket 12.05am wedding game~! be4 tat we go makan at kopitiam..=) dear treat mi makan.. n movie too =)

woots~! the wedding game NICE la!! haas.. fann wong damn cute inside leh.. hmmM chris..lee also shuai~! =))) nice nice hees~!

Den home sweet home .. reach hm ard 3 plus.. den woots! damn sleepy. BUT i decided to wait for my dear to reach home den go orh orh.. so in order to prevent mi to slp i use lappy! den msg him he say reaching so i off lappy rest on my bed.. den msg dear dear.. den dunno y! 3.45 like tat i doze off!! no feeling at all man!! my god.. den 4 dear reach home msg mi i didnt reply..... den 6 sudden wake i was like SHIT! i doze off!!!!! den fast faster msg dear.. but he no reply le.. till today 7 he wake...... den he tell mi he 6 plus vomit! my god dear... y no call mi nei? althought i kno i cant do anything la but i can call on phone see how u ya... was asking mi wan mi go over? he say no nid... ok lo...he rest at bed.. den call my bro drive mi home. 8 plus reach home. awhile later dear say go slp..... hmmM. tats all of folk~! dear food poisoning...

kinda piss wif my bro! didnt get the driving book for mi den call ming get den he say not comfirm can.. CB. NeO Yi Peng!! call mi take ur thing can help mi do simple thing cannot! u remember ok! call mi take thing still throw temper on MI! IDIOT *piss!

看了一本漫画。。写说着我的感觉=））让我想起了一些时=））。。。。。

我最想做的事是。。。

跟喜欢的人在家里窝一整天吧。。。

不出去也没关系。。

喜欢你抱着我看电视。。

就像在我家半夜用我的电脑看戏，一起吃麦当劳。。

我超爱的！

喜欢从医院回到我家。。我们在一起回的时候。。在我家一直一直抱着我。。不放手。

=））

08 feb09， 11.05pm

2009-02-04T06:46:00.003-10:00

觉得现在很幸福。。

有男朋友的感觉真好。。

希望这是永远的哦！=）

2 day ago brought a speaker for dear.. from Apple~! i kan qiong den wan fast buy n pass to him. it for his birthdae gift o... hhass cos wanna see his reaction den i fast go buy hees and a bk from kinokunia =)))

05 feb 09 1.11am..

jus now online.. jun hong was talking to mi.. say tri seem bother...... den talk dao saying if anithing happen how she... OO MG! when i see tis my heart turn sour...... jus nicw listen to my blog song.. hao xiang ku o... T.T haiss... 感动。。

05 feb 09， 1.23am

2009-01-31T19:14:00.004-10:00

30 jan 09, meet dao dear n we went for a movie.. watch Bride War~!. tat a movie i wanna see.. so in the end dear like the girl inside so he suggest go watch.. LoL.. the show.. normal! middle was bit bored. but the ending was nice and sad. my gosh.. i drop my tears.. T.T after movie we cabby home.

actually theres alot of thing to write but lazy...

31 jan 09, meet dear for movie again. he suggested. well not i didnt plan at all.. i did.. when i'm working i was tinking when dear come we go raffles see the clothing he wan.. but i haven say out he say go movie ler... yup yup. we watch underground.

Be4 movie we kinda haf small arguement. first at marina. saw his friend. den i standing aside.. when finish talking he was saying y i dont stand beside him. not i dont wan..... cos i wear till ugly...make up not nice... den i go aside ma... cos his friend gf wear nice ncie pretty pretty stand beside... haiss... i got misunderstood by him..

den at tampines. outside mac.. kinda dissapointed.. small argue wif dear..

Den was kip saying abt my room messy. he said somthing hit my heart! now n den he see no different.! when now i was trying my v best to kip my room clean.

i'm always trying to maintain my room.

after tat we r alrite=)

now waiting for dear to prepare n go ah ma hse.

01 feb 09, 1.40pm

2009-01-28T05:19:00.007-10:00

weets.. time fly.. is already day 3. kinda sian. cos tml start work zzz ahhh!!

Day 1, wait up damn early 7 plus den 8 plus off to father side ah ma hse zz. den afternoon time go mother side.. play poker LOSE! lol even lose my bro 10 bucks.. haas. den is kinda bored leh tis new year..zz evening time back to home. den we in the end when to aunty hse.. haas nth to do. den talk talk plan plan in the end all decided to go st jame. when reaching there my bro was tinkin he can go in meh?! cos guy need 23? haas. when reach looking for parking. we pass by power hse the Q was long dao cannot make it. so we out from there. HAA so we change to makan. weets 150 gone!! damn exp! but my aunty treat haas.. den young wan die hard dont wan go back den we in the end go phuture haas dance until wan to die. 1 plus i and my bro was damn sian liao. 3am 1 cousin also cmi liao. den my tang ge!! gt lot energy!! woots! still continue play zz drag us all in till 4am. off light.zzz i almost die ther.. haas. at there saw big bro n gf. and another cousin.. haas world so small lol.a guy treat mi drink~! but i didnt drink.. cos i almost vomit after sec cup haas..

Didnt meet dao dear at all. and he didnt come club also. cos his friend don wan come. so nvm lor..

Day 2, wah lau eh damn tired 5 plus AM sleep 8 plus kanna waked to go ah ma hse! damn shag!! zzz so faster change den father drive to ah ma hse. ONCE reached my bros n i 3 ppl go find bed n sleep!! haas den afternoon time went to uncle hse. den dear came too. cos they use to be neighour. den we play poker. i lose again zzz no luck. haas dear win. MJ also lose. no luck -.- den after tat all of us went loyang bai bai. 11 of us. den go makan. 66.9o bucks. lol den back home. while back home dear say go his relative she bai nian? at tampines. so i was happi n say okie~! cos once his ma say bring mi go.. he was like no la.. i going bai nian without asking mi... haiss.. i was tinking u dont wish to intro mi to them....... den 9 plus we reached. damn alot of ppl! woots

DEN after tat we went to ray hse bai nian den home sweet home. on the way to ray hse dear divide half of winning money gif mi =)) so sweet of him..

Day 3, we went to my friend hse bai nian.. den we win =)) he win 20 plus i win 10 plus. 1 hr later we go off.. nth to talk to my sec friend zzz. so dear send mi home den go back.

some photo~!

bro driving

in car going club phuture

mummy n mi

bro driving lol we look rich..

EVE

his ma cook for mi de lols

dear hse

29 jan 09, 12.28am

2009-01-25T07:04:00.002-10:00

hees~! HAppy new year!!^^

Eve.
afternoon going dear hse makan.. at first tot his didi at home so gt kinda feel don feel like going.. cos i'm scare to see his didi..zz haiss so 1 plus when prepare half way got to kno dear didi not at home i was like woots! happi den faster take cab to his hse.. cos scare his didi come back..haas.. 3 reach his hse.. he was sleeping. haas his mummy open door for mi=)) den i went to room and wake him up. den was saying half hr more. LOL. cos he 1 whole day didnt sleep..

so 4 plus he finally wake and we go makan~! his ma cook my fav egg. And specially cook fried chicken for mi.. this was dear told mi.. sae i cook chicken for mi.. touch..=))) so happi la~! realise mi ^^ taken some photo shall updated soon.. while waiting for him to prepare i saw his facebk gt fang ru... zzz haiss.. i kno theres nth.. but jus hate it. it will let mi tink much. ZI DAO. when i saw i emo. 讨厌啦T.T

6pm off to my hse.. waited half hr de cab!!argg *&%^@# haas
when reach my hse my family already start eating so we join in.. we don eat alot.. cos we was damn fulllll~.. lol den slack at my hse.. 10 plus my bro send him home..half way home his phone ring sms. it was pri friend asking him out.. lol so when i reaching home.. he ask mi whether can go.. of cos.. u need ur friend too.. i must always remind myself.. tis. cos my 占有欲很强。。this is bad.. i kno..... i'm controlling... haas.. so i'm alone now using lappy.. lucky i buy a lappy man..hees..

Tan.. today called mi. say broke off wif aaron.. but now is back.. good=) be happi alrite? happi new year..

dear dear 新年快了。。

新年了但是我并没有新年的感觉。。只有，有点无聊的感觉。。why？不知道。。

好累了。。该睡了。。晚安。。

晚安义婷。。

26 jan 09，1.29am

2009-01-24T08:53:00.005-10:00

24 jan 09, was fine at work.. gt a new bag for myself.. and bras? haas~ last min buy.. well spent too much money.. left $40 plus at bank.. my headache didnt gt well at all..at was getting worst.

todae meet dao dear. went to watch movie..inkheart! a v nice show! nice nice.. be4 movie went to eat chicken rice.. cos i'm damn hungry ... on the way to makan i fall down..zzz my knee n hand was damn pain... till now still pain.. haiss

hmm something... i'm speechless..

hope new year don come?

kinda

..

tis moment i'm wating for kaini to come take shop key from mi..

i was damn tired n sleepy tis few day..

i simply need alot of sleep..

since tml tian not doing nail.. i shall sleep longer

n since tml jus go dear hse awhile onli n no need wear nice.. so i no nid wake up early as wad i plan earlier on..

tata...

i'm jus like a small kid.. i admit at times

25 jan 09,3.02am.

突然很怕yong jie。。
完完全全不想看到他。。

真怕有一天我们的感情会因为你弟弟而出现问题。。=（

wad shall i do leh?? hmm

4am..

2009-01-23T07:16:00.010-10:00

woots today at work was damn sleepy man zzz.. i like nowadae always v sleepy..alamak..

4 plus go makan wif DHILA!! long time no see her and makan together ler hoho~! so we went to sepohra? she buy her thing n i seeing some slimming cream (Fatgirlslim) funni rite? the name haas.. i see at magazine so i go see see lo.. den i walk 1 big round didnt see so i ask the sale girl.. she sae SOLD OUT. v v popular.. woots!! so was asking gt sample see see? its v water nei.. like lotion.. so i try..den i kinda stupid.. be4 i try i didnt close it back.. and i turn the hand tat holding the product so right hand can apply.. DEN DEN.. the cream is v v water den fall to the floor.. -.- i was ALAMAK!!! kip saying sorry.. i'm realli sorry o to the sale girll.. paiseh paiseh.. er... no face zzz LOL after buying we walk to cine to makan .. walk 1 round dunno wad to eat in the end go lucky plaza eat PIZZA!!! LOL.. yum yum hees.. den 6 back to shop.. norita goin die from hunger.. haas..

Off work dear come fetch mi.. half way walking to meet him, receive a call from ray. Say meeting us.. LOL.. den we walk back to wisma n meet him. Den we jalang jalang inside.. walk walk walk.. in a shop dear eye a clothing. so call him to try and i get it =) 2pcs of clothing for him.. for new year~ den 9 home sweet home.. he send mi home den 10.45 he back home ler....

SOO i tried all my new year clothing to let my bro see wuhaha.. happi~! suddenly like alot clothing.. LOL but not enough!! haas try try try.. den after tat go pong pong.. finish pong pong suddenly wan clean my room.. cos is damn damn damn messy..haas after cleaning brew honey drink wif ice=)) sit down use laptop n drink wooootss~~~ RElax sia.. BUT BUT BUT is not perfect.. zzz my room not nice.. zzz not wad i wanted zzz and and and!! the room not belong to myself. as my bro share room wif mi zzz.. sick...每有私人空间。。 sign~..

HEY HEY finally i tidy my room ~!

photo for my new year clothing haas

dear choose di

my bro say tis photo no breast zz

the exp de? dunno y i jus like it? the colour? haas

bro tis photo suai

my mummy

me and my bro sickenin mouth? hees

pizza!! photo when makan wif dhila haas

yummy~!

Dhila

For dear de

24 jan 09,2.08am

2009-01-21T10:12:00.003-10:00

some photo will be updated tml~~^^
haas.. some of my funni photo again~ and trip at sentosa.. pei dear go chalet.. haas

2009-01-21T09:50:00.007-10:00

AHHHH i'm sleepy!! LOL.. todae work till 8pm den went to meet dear.. den go jun hong hse play mj de.. receive tri msg in afternoon ask wan play mj?cos hong too bored.. sae himself ke lian.. haa.. i'm alrite=) not always also...

so after work headed to dear hse pass him his sis de thing den we headed to Courts first.. brought something for dear=)) he choose himself=))) when we reach there 10 more min going to close man!! haas.. after we buy the thing we headed giant!! to shop awhile..den buy sushi makan haas.. too bad la.. not enough time to shop all !! weLL i enjoy SHOPPIN IN supermarket!~ IKEA~more den shopping clothing sometime haa~ i'm weird?! LOL ..

nice~ colour~light

is a disffuser.. =)

Den we headed to hong hse mj.. hees.. was telling dear when meet him..i already prepare $ to lose de... todae jus go play play onli.. cos i not good in playin..haas.. and like didnt win be4 like tat? but after 2 hr we end our game.. i WIN!! woots.. happening sia.. 3 lose to mi.. total i win $19 plus? dear lose more.. but nvm.. i'm not going to take from him.. as for hong n tri they didnt pay de hua nvm beh.. gt den i take.. LOL.. den wif dear wait for cabby home.. my trip was $30.. LOL well is ex.. LOL..

Tml gonna wake up at 11am. book appointment at 12pm to cut hair den 1pm meet julia at lot 1.. to my hse and do nail..=)) to earn abit... den can enjoy...=)) was tired..

Haa~~ dear online tell mi wan buy mi the thing 1 buy for him..(pink) for valentine.. so sweet of him=))) actually i already get my valentine gift last month ler.. perfume n oxy mask set~~ but he still wanna get for mi.. oOOla.. so nice~~ hees^^

i'm having v bad headach!! cum not enough slp cum hungry now!!! haas..

22 jan 09, 4.11am

2009-01-19T08:13:00.003-10:00

Now 20 jan 2.14am.

now we r back together..hope its will be happy everyday alrite?dear?

went for interview ytd.. some sort i'm shortlisted?! =)) hope so.. cos theres lot of ppl interview n they currently no job!! i lose at tat.. cos some of the outlet nid ppl urgently.. haiss hope so..after interview back to dear hse.. n rot till 12am=)) his didi was at hm=((

going facial todae!!wif peh yean =)) 12pm!! hees den meeting dear dear at town..when he wake..

was tired tis 2 day cos slp v late!! even now too!!is already 2.23am!! my god.. LOL.. bored.. new year coming lo... hmmM abit feel going dear hse i'm lost.. his didi...zzz den i haf no topic to his ma.. haiss.. well i'm a boring person.. haiss wanted to find thing talk but nth came out from my mouth.. haiss i'm kind of blur? dunno wad to do.. go dear hse i also scare.. haiss (his didi) stress.. todae dear was calling mi stay over his hse de.. (happi=)) but kind of don wan too.. cos i scare his didi.. although i tao yan yong jie same like dear tao yan my dad.. i still can go his hse all.. but stay over... scare. wait his didi dunno do wad to his ma again..zzz haisss.. -.- and i hate if his didi realli do thing.. a line from dear mouth will come out(next time don come lor).. haiss.. i don he don mean wad but.. .. .. just don wish to hear tis word come out from dear.

20 jan 09, 2.30am

2009-01-18T19:18:00.002-10:00

jus prepare finish for going interview... hmmm.. haiss.. gt a feeling cannot make it.. T.T well.. i was damn scare? dunno leh.. 好矛盾。。haiss 好闷哦！！又好累。。闷！！dear dear was sleeping now.. ytd we slp at 6am!! zzz i was damn sleepy now... 好无聊。。

祝我加油吧！！我的心里没准备好啦！T。T

19 jan 09,1.23pm

2009-01-17T07:17:00.011-10:00

mi makan meehoon soto LOL

on the way to bugis.. wind damn bigg funni us^^lub her

dhila wanna take together wif bf for 7 anni~ congrat!!^^ i'm going for solo photo takin~!be memories hees i'm findin~

relieve at paragon n took some photo ahhhaa~!

wif sab~!(same bdae wif mi nei! 7 nov)^^

cha soba=)) fav at centerpoint cold storage=)

18 jan 09,1.45am..

2009-01-17T06:12:00.008-10:00

todae was a damn tired de day for mi.. LOL.. cos v sleepy ah!! sleep at 6plus am. 10 plus wake up go work..LOL.. but ok la.. dear send mi to work=)）.

kind of disappointed? heard from wei jie tat dear got say DONT WAN come my hse de lo? i was straight zzz. even is not now, kind of sad abt past right. The reason u gif mi is i'll come.(tis word i waited so long but didnt come). But not every time cos scare my parent ask u no work ah. zzz so actually is u haf already tink of not coming to my hse anymore. thanks. been to so many thing..tink i shouldn't always believe in anione easily? trust =? well.. i know maybe is not now... alrite.. pass =)

Woots.. today work like didnt work.. LOL.. first! i'm late for work.. haas.. i gt mc n lateness tis month $200 gone.. next time eat cup noodles every dae? haas~ see first how LOl.. 12.45 clock in at paragon den go ngee ann den back centerpoint.. the time is almost 1 plus? LOL. den change make up.. 1.30 went buy toast box. till 2pm! Q was damn long.. sickenin..zz den 2 plus telling norita i go raffles take pay slip? den 3 off from shop.. den 5.15pm den back to shop!!! haas half day gone. LOL after raffles wif dhila went bugis makan haa~~ den go parco shop shop awhile den i was aiming the i phone rubber case for dear? after i found the price was 30 plus? but alrite la.. buy for him.. den called dear to ask the colour in the he say i dont know wad he wan de la.. not like tri tat type..aiya i dont kno how to sae.. hmm dont buy first lo... den i .. ok lo hang up den back to shop...

i tink once i haf bf.. and when i kno i wont be meeting him i'll feel bored easily.. y arh? LOL when i single.. no ppl talk to mi i also like tat pass my time..without complaining anything.. weird.. anyhow anyhow msg..find thing to msg.. not important also msg..bo liao bo liao wan call n talk to him.. haiss.. is tis normal? or i'm too sticky? well i think partly i'm sticky?......

7 plus receive call from my kakis. call mi end work call him.. i didnt call.. i msg..LOL den he sae he at town. den ask wan movie? nah... makan? i was yum yum.. cos i'm hungry tat moment=x.. so alrite?! haas.. so in the end they from taka walk over find mi.. woots so good~! den we went cuppage makan wanton mee.. they treat..=)) den we talk talk.. not onli kakis.. will another guy his friend=) kakis always wan say us den we tag team say him back!! haas was fun=) den while talking we walk to ps.. den awhile..ard 11 cabby home.. kees since so long we see each other.. =( for kakis.. at cabb he talk talk wif gf den in the end quarrel..=(( when meet kakis ask gf leh? he say attending birthday party..i was thinking y he not going? in the end is the gf didnt ask him tag along.. zzz y arh?! cannot go together meh?!sick..

kakis friend n kakis=) they r funni

kakis n mi.. my face is weird..

有时候，常有身边的人告诉我。你明明看到眼前有个洞会甩下去但你还偏偏爱往前走。要不就是曾经甩下去了，爬上来了又往那里走。你不怕死啊！

哈。。。我就是这样的人啊。还真不怕死。。（我看我是白痴吧）我总爱试一试最后一次嘛。可能看戏看太多了吧。太天真。哈哈

前阵子，我看了一部戏（命中注定我爱你）迷上了joe chen qiao en。子后买了一本书（see or not。qiao 见没）！里面的内容有的我觉得我们很相似呢。=）

hmmm 我有好多想要的东西（不。应该不可以说是东西。。应该这么说呢？）都是在陈欣怡这个角色里找的到的。。。但很多人会说那是戏嘛！。。。沉默。。。。。

18 jan 09,1.15am..

2009-01-15T07:08:00.007-10:00

Some photo~~taken at shop! too bored lOL

LOL best of the day.. haaa~~

pimple cum messy hair T.T

blur~

tis is norita~! hoho

my pimple zzz emo whole day

weets.. after 15 days transfer to CPT finally saw norita LOL.. Todae onli working wif her... Well todae the sales was suck too.. not even $300 for my own sales zzz.same thing when to PS de bank back den go makan subway~!alone.. den go walk walk at watson,gardien.. cold storage.. den buy 3 pcs mask hoho $6 plus.. den back to shopp~!.. hmm i found marie france contact no! i called ask for jobss.. den i gt a interview~!=))) hope can get in? 19 Jan 3 PM at orchard international woots.. wish mi lucks? kees... kinda happi.. same time i was emo whole day abt my face!! ahhh shhit... zzz emo la!

Todae meet dao dear dear..=)) he came find mi.. walk walk.. at town.. we went to far east walk walk.. we buy shi lin chicken hoho..makan.. den went to 77th street and a brought a top! LOL.. is dear choose for mi de.. well was happi! cos tis is the 1st time we see clothing together.. since we r 1 yr 2 month.. cos last time when i sae see clothing..he will say i dunno how to see girl clothing.. NOW nope~! we see together^^ help mi choose somemore..haas~ tml shall updated the clothing.. LOL.. and dear tml coming my hse slp again^^ but incase next day stomach pain de hua i shall go work myself..=) is alrite~ but if u no pain mus bring mi go work?! wukaka den after makan he stomach pain.. so i haf to go back myself.. but in the end i was back home wif nana by cabby..=)) dear was calling mi go back wif nana so he will be more fang xin.. den okie.. i called nana..LOL

heard from peh yean tml theres a gathering.. going k box.. well i'm not tagging alone.. cos i'm broke! n don realli haf the mood too cum tired n DEAR SAY COMIN MY HSE!!=)).. heard from sharlene.. guy gt poh hau,yi wei,ah toot la.. been so long didnt see them liao lor... so.. tml u all enjoy ya~!=))

another happi day~ cos meet dao dear wuhaha n been through a moment tat we dont really do for the past 1 yrs~ thanks dear dear for pei wo shop shop nei..

ahhh cash low~~~ when pay comin in?!

yawns~ sleepy.. nites nites (16 jan 1.41am)

2009-01-14T07:56:00.028-10:00

hoho recently photo~! some of my ugly photo too~!=))

Gifts from dear dear=)))

steamboat wif nana n kevin... tis wan ex!$40 nei.. but nice~=)

steamboat wif tricia,jun hong,adam,dean(rite?)... LOL january=)

x'mas 2008...

2009-01-14T05:56:00.002-10:00

tired.. i'm hungry now!! woots turning 12am soon.. sian 8 hr later have to wake up!!zz i haven bath somemore.. zz! hmmM got piss of by something.. i dont like to be force! when i really say straight i DON WAN alot alot of time mean i reallliii reallliii don wan..... pls ... haiss.. 12 jan jj came makan wif mi den nite come my hse orh orh=)) pei wo.. came at 12 plus.. LOL den we were watching tv.. and he say wan eat mac~ aHHH i gonna be fat~! LOL.. let mi tink of last time wad we always do.. haa midnite order mac=)) hoho~~ after makan we watch show from my lappy=))) tis wad i always wan=)))) eat together..see show together.. although didnt go out..is alrite~~ =)) hoho 3 plus den i go pong pong hoho=x 4 plus5 den we back to room orh orh.. when falling asleep dear dear was calling mi wake him up tml~ den we was planning go out shop shop see movie.. but he say if 12 plus wake don call him.. too early.. LOL.. in the end i realli 12 plus wake up! den i disturb him up!!! hoho!! LOL!! den we r damn sleepy.. we slack here slack there in the end 2 plus going 3 den go out from my hse go back his hse..lol.. half way we back to my hse i change my jean..LOL.. den jus nice got show.. den we watch awhile..LOL drag time again.. haaa.. almost 4 den we cabby to his hse LOL! hmm been quite sometime didnt go his hse.. 2 month plus? hmm back to last time=)) awhile later his mummy back home~ his mummy cook.. got the egg i like too. dear dear was so nice still go buy chicken chop(fried de) to gif mi eat together wif rice n egg woots~! happii wuhaha gt my fav fries HOHO~! den 5 plus we decided to go see jh.. 9 plus. so dear say we go bugis walk walk first~ cos i wan see clothing actually=)) 7 plus out from home..we walk walk walk see dao guy clothing~! and brought a shirt for dear kees=)) he long time no buying clothing lo~! but he use his money buy thing for mi.. tat day he came my hse gif mi a pair of ear ring he buy from river island woots..!! update photo next time round.. while he was talking to casio friend i saw a ring in a shop was damn nice.. i almost buy it but... kind of exp! $36 nei.. er..... nvm bei since i seldom wear LOL!! den after tat went to buy tako pachi n bubble tea for jh=)) den headed there.. see dao him heart sour sia.. hand kanna poke by a needle 1 day... =(( talk talk awile going 11 we headed back home.. i cabby wif tri home..

today dear dear come n find mi for my makan time~=)) we walk to far east makan den jalang jalang.. den almost 8 back to shop den he stay awhile den off to see jh..lo..

2009-01-12T05:09:00.002-10:00

Jus back hm.. kind of v sleepy!! cum hungry.. but need to control... cos fat liao..den chinese new year comin oh my god..! hmmM ytd too lazy to blog.. hmM hmmM ytd off again~ theres alot of off tis month.. like work one dae den off LOL!! kind of slack.. haa..

10 jan, went to hospital at 5 am wif tri.. LOL sleepy.. but alrite!~ when reach there jh was orh orh-ing.. den tri was saying see him like tat xin dong.. .. .. awhile... tri wake him up.. den awhile we walk out of the room.. LOL like tou tou mo mo like tat haa.. den wad we do?! _ _ went smoke smoke.. HAHA~! den back again.. while they was resting i went downstair walk walk.. den ard 7.45 jj came. .. .. den back talk cock.. den when jh going bath.. jj n i went walk ard again.. went back find tri..den force her go makan haaa~! at food court talk cock again.. tri feel so xin tong.... when ard 11 plus?! went back.. and jj go off wif mi.. den went on the way out.. he say wanna talk talk.. hmmmm.. after awhile he send mi hm.. take cab!.. and i was too sleepy..n sleep inside cab..when reaching home we sit downstair talk again.. well tis time round is after we broke off.. 1st time meet n talk.. we really talk alot tis time.. really talk.. 2 plus he went up my hse help mi to see my computer..(he really treat mi good tis time round.. Hope is forever n not just first 3 month.. or i'll hate u de....) In the end he stay till v late.. at first talk talk awhile den i say 10 min wake mi up den i pong pong den go makan..? cos we like didnt makan whole dae.. BUT of cos i gt eat abit la.. LOL for him.. he didnt eat at all.. .. my 10 min up he didnt wake mi up nei! den end up sleep half hr plus.. sure he was v hungry ba.. but he still call mi to slp.. so touch... den finally i wake myself up bath n we went to lot 1 makan.. we makan PASTA~!! woots~ he treat =D after makan we went walk walk awhile.. den he send mi home again.. den stay till 12.30 den cabby hm..den i slp again haa.. todae feel like so xin fu like tat.. if last time is always like tat good lo...

11 jan, at home rot till 5 plus den went to PS meet jj.. and went to suntec.. our alot of memories... and we went to eat the korean food at basement..(like foodcourt type.. not resturant..LOL) tat we always use to eat last time went i'm still working at fancl.. haa.. den went walk ard n marina too..den 8 plus home sweet home..~ and we rot at hse downstair again.. and talk talk kee kee.. den went up my hse.. he sae till 11 den go =D last time 10.15 jiu wan go le.. now 11 =D.. in the end cos of mi.. he stay late again.. den awhile we went downstair we walk ard..haha.. when we see the time it was ard 1.30AM! den we went 7 11 see ice cream haha~~ den go sit down again till 3AM!! den up back to hm.. sit at sofa rot dao 4AM!!! WOOTS~! den jj cabby hm.. haha.. another happi dae.. always tink of mi first =)) muacks.. sms awhile n i fall ASLEEP!! alamak!!

today.. work day.. LOL 3 plus from centerpoint i WALK to forum woots.. it was.. aHHH hot?!LOL y go forum?! i go buy body shop staff purchase haaa.. helping ben buy body wash=)) den help tian buy thing too..n work friend.. while waiting for my friend.. i see see my thing too.. brought a cheek colour brush=)) for myself keke.. den tooo tired to walk back~! den bus back..haaha den JJ came makan wif mi!!!=DD 5 plus.. he not makaning.. cos home gt cook cook... but went he came i sae wan eat long john!! den he see at mi.. sae: gu yi de hor.. haha.. yupp!! cos long john he sure eat de wuhaha.. so i buy a meal n crunchy shimp we share~! den we walk to taka kinokunia?! see book!~ BOOK!?! wad BOOK?! Mi mi!! LOL haa~~ den went to take stock at nac outlet a hamper~! it was HEAVY.. but jj help mi carry =DD back to CPT.. he saw kaini.. and sae a thing.. she SUIT BEN LEH.. HAHA SEE!!! i told kaini le.. haha u suit ben lo.. LOL.. haa~ when tell kaini abt it.. she was like shy..and sae no la!! keke.. hoho.. hmmM call ben to collect the item from her?! hee`~ JJ say coming stay over =))) pei wo.. so blog tis while waiting for him haha~~ tat all~! muacks nite nite.. eh.. like no photo ah.. hmm one dae will update di~~~

2009-01-09T07:24:00.004-10:00

woots jus back hm..LOL.. todae work alone at centerpoint.. full shift.. is damn bored! n no crowd.. WORST! mornin walk pass kopi shop see breakfast set wan buy! in the end zzz. i gt buy la. The set should haf coffee,bread,egg. when i sae take away uncle tell mi take away no egg! i was like?HUH?!
at least gt cup ba? he sae NO! zzz. den sae change bread for mi. zzz the bread is onli normal white bread!wif kaya n cheese zzz.. wasted!! 早知道go toast box better.!! reach shop do some cleanin cum arrange the shop..cos gt stock.LOL. den Rot ROT ROT. 5 went buy my dinner!at cold storage!! cha soba?! now my fav!! LOL den 5 plus ben came wif his friend. LOL!! den he left. was bored again. LOL. kip doing ribbon la..wrapper la.. SIAN! den 8 plus he came again! help mi buy something hahaa.. thanks ya^^

AHHH i got 2 miss call!!dunno from hu! issit from sugar shop!?! called back but no ans. hope tml will call back again.. den wait for peh yean.. den i do settlement la.. bla bla.. den wait for her husband to come.. den we went supper! at westside! damn nice. the Q is LONG DE LOR!! woots yummy!!. well .. .. .. in car.. yean n husband was trying pull red line !! me to his friend..LOL.. start from friend.. haa.. er.. see how den~! work first..LOL

AHH fat liao la!! tis few day always supper supper OMG~!

OH YA! important!!!!!!! i was stunt!

morning receive msg from tri can nite movie n swimming cancel. den sae jh in hospital ytd! i was like?!?! HUH wad happen!! cos ytd he was fine.. she didnt sae much.. den when ben come he sae abit.. JH bite himself.. den 7 plus tri called mi.. i was SHOCK!! SHE WAS CRYING!!! understand how she feel......when she tell mi wad happen.. my god.. if i was her i dunno wad will i do.. Ohmy.. T.T she keep crying...

AND!!!!!!!! to the SISTER N bit of mom!!! STOP IT LA! DON ALWAYS THINK U R RITE! TRUE STUDY IS IMPORTANT BUT SON IS MORE IMPORTANT BA!! SO WAD IS 6K! U ONLY GT 1 SON!! &*$@#%^!!!!! money is important but can earn wad!!!!

and to jh~.. rest well.. and hope u speak out wad u wan.. sae u don like the course u studying now.. don sae scare dissapoint them leh... if u study the course u like all get A A A is more proud den jus pass or wadever in the IT course rite.. GAMBATTE! jia you neh..

yawn~~ later 4 plus have to wake lo~~ pei tri go hospital =D see jh too..
tri.. don cry le o...

hehe~! kailin jus now was saying wan mi be her v v best friend n sister for life..LOL next life also.. hoho was damn touch.. keke well i wont run away ok!! since u say tat u better glue urself to mi!! or i curse u!! wuhaha~

nana~! miss u too HOHO~ if nana u gt see my blog.. see i gt write u ok!! cos if i dont write u'll curse mi de nei..wuhaha..~~

eh.. .. .. i tink i change le.. now dont know how to concern ppl like tat.. onli kno how to sae dont cry.. althought i understand the feel.. but just like dunno wad to say.. zzz its not mi.. .. ..

i gt my fav cha soba photo~! updated next time..lazy la..HOHO

hehe..kaini told mi my mc can claim!!woots~ lucky.. 80 plus nei..LOL

2009-01-07T15:11:00.002-10:00

Yawn~~morning~~ gt wake by my mama.. LOl.. mc today too.. when i'm wake saw msg from him.. well askin mi can come his hse? i was ??? n reply a for wad? LoL.. no idea.. hMM
kind of sian.. dunno y like also cant sleep well.. yawn.. O.O after todae tml work 1 dae and i'm off again 2 daY~! 2 weekend off again..woots haha.. AHH was hungry again! nowadays kip hungry easily..LOL tink my aunty coming visit mi soon..LOL..

AND AND AND recently kip on craving for sushi sushi sushi HOHOO LUB LUB LUB!! gt hook on cha soba?! LOL

shall update tonite.!! hoHO..

keke back home lo~ it's going 12AM~

hmm~ todae went to bedok wif my mummy n aunt.. we walk around..and i didnt get anithing for myself..zz sian1/2. while waiting tri to off work.. my ma n aunt went to KFC~ fastfooood.. .. so 3 plus i went to take mrt n meet tri~! we all the way to serangoon go the dunno wad army see sec hand clothing. IN THE END!! theres nth inside!! we emoZZ!! 15 min later out from there n decided to went bugis~! LOL.. well.. we shop shop shop LOL..buy some new year clothing.. is cheap! LOL.. after tat meet jun hong. he finish school.. den meet ben! thanks to him help mi collect shop key from friend n bring to bugis.. wuhaha~ den treat him makan repay him.. but not exp de la.. hope u don mind o.. after tat din?!(dunno how to spell) came. den talk cock awhile jiu cabby home~ hmmM enjoy~~ keke.. n n N!! my enGGlisHH problem come out..n BEN spot it!! no face again.. zz LOL..

hmmmm~~ realise today buy de clothing don't really wear be4 so i nid nid nid DIET again~!

ehh tml haf to work full.. .. but is OK~! next 2 dae i'm off again~! n going bugis wif tan shopshop~! maybe mornin go swimming wif tri keke. long time didnt swim eh~~ qi dai~!

i wan go sentosa~! long time ago~! hMM

n PAISEH AH!! my ENGGlisHHH

2009-01-07T04:15:00.000-10:00

hoho tis blog been open since last year.. but didn't update anything. since a brand new yrs i shall start by today~!.
well..

First of all.. i'm single on 20 dec sigh.. be4 i single actually i brought a t-shirt as xmas present for him.. in the end didnt give..

24 dec, meet peh yean go for a facial at town.. she treat! and she brought alot of thing for mi. my gods~! but thanks her alot. After that.. we headed to vivo~! cos town was damn crowded!tian ah! n n n..vivo is crowded too. we walk walk walk...den had our dinner. After tat we no wher to go n went to jason work place.PUB. spend our xmas eve there.. till 3? lol. Actually haf way through dinner reveive msg from tri. askin mi join them at jh hse to celebrate.. wah.. but abit late.. ..

25 dec, was workin afternoon shift.. after work tri,jh came..meet them for dinner~ @ cine.When saw jh he gif mi a bag of thing.. i was like ??? den he say it was from jj.. i was.. sigh.. my thinking is messy.. cannot say v happi..nor sad..and when goin finish our dinner saw jj.was the first time we break off saw each other. well.. after tat i was damn tired n went home..and they went to watch movie.. i wAN WATCH TWILIGHT! but lots ppl sae not nice.. so in the end didnt watch.. wait for my friend to lent mi ba..zz

1 jan, nth special.. 8 plus reach hm.. and 12 plus fall asleep.. tink was damn tired n sleepy past few week.. hmm receive a cake from jj..didnt eat on tat dae..cos v late le..wait fat fat.. haha. but next dae mornin i makan all by myself! hoho n.... i gt transfer to center point.....

one dae..cant remember which dae.. jj ma..called mi.. to help her daughter buy thing haha.. but haven tell mi wad item o.. n one dae.......receive v hurting msg from somebody.. haiss.. cannot even imgine tis came out from ur mouth....well i cant sae anithing..

6 jan, meet peh yean after work to makan.. as i owe her one meal.. cos she always treat mi..so tis time round my turn.. haha..we went to hk cafe.cine. den makan till goin 10? we headed to k box. LOL.sing till 1. and we headed hm.. tis day we talk alot.. abt mi.. i jus feel kind of lost again..zz i'm always lost in my life. in work. in love. till now i simply cant walk out the dark circle!.. haiss well tink i need time..time time. i always feel insecure.

7 jan, 7 plus be4 off work.. i saw jj! i was shock. we in the end jus pass by each other.. i was like ..dunno..shock den dunno sae wad.. he also didnt sae anithing. so jus see each other den walk away.. well tat moment is damn damn sour.. ahh y is mi sia..walk pass each other.. well.. i haf to stand up on my 2 feet~!

3 am~! when i was lying on bed.. i started to scretch my face, rub my eye.. den slowly my boby.. den i kip went to toilet to wash.. getting more n more worst!and face was swallon! and i cant tahan. i wake my ma! and she jus call mi to bath.n tat all!! i angry n pek cek. when to bath. but it still no work. i cried.. n walk to my sec bro who is slpin.. i knee down beside mi.. wake him up call him bring mi to doc. he was kind of shock when he saw mi.. and he hugged mi. well cos i'm crying.. i hugged him back cry more louder n sae NO PPL CARE ABT MI LA... den he fast fast wear clothing and bring mi to cck 24hr.. i kip on scretching when we r on the dae to lot 1.well he scolded mi.. DON SCRETCH. well i cry when i was walkin.. of cos. when reach.. the doc. kind of idiot. dunno how come sg so mani doc like tat. Don be doctor better la!! F***. Den inside gt a injection. to stop the itch. went out of the room n wait for the bill. the bill was 80 plus! my godness...zzz haiss.. den cab hm. den kor went to slp. so i did the same thing too. eat my medicine n slp. was mc for todae n tml...

Jus.. Jus.. half hr ago.. jj call my bro down.. i dunno y.. n till now den i read his blog. cos i donno he invite mi.when reading was damn sad..jus like last time.. so after reading send him a msg. awhile later.. mama back..gif mi a bag of thing.. from him.. of cos.. the item is wad i always wan!was happy.. seriously thanks u.. if u gt read dao my blog..

well well.. kind of sian..$$ runnin low~~ lookin for part time job? haha.. hmm.. meeting tan comin sat to shop for new year clothin..after tat i still need go help ppl do nail...ahh.. tired.

till now i still hate being alone,i hate slient sometime,i hate being leave behind.. i feel nth like smooth ah.. lol work friend kaini sae she gt shock by mi.. cos i kip on dieting.. lol.. i was like gt abit depession ah... kip on thinkin n thinkin..hmm peh yean was callin stop thinkin!i nid relax..lol.. hao lo.. tat all for todae haha. nite nites~!

AND!! my blog not fully done... as wad u all can see.. no intro.. no pic.. no song..no link.. will update soon when i free keke..